Crash and burn

I was doing so well...

I was happy with my meds, and feeling fairly stable, and being able to be productive etc...and now I've crashed and starting to burn

There's been stuff going on at home, I have some other internal issues going on, have been treated like crap, am stressing out about work and school...and I realized tonight that I hadn't showered since Saturday, or maybe Friday (I honestly don't remember)...and I have to work in 8 hours and I'm still awake because I so desperately need to cry but can't really let it all out since I'm sharing a room with my younger sister and she's sleeping and I don't want to wake her.

I'm just so overwhelmed and feeling so low, and Thursday T can't come soon enough!

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad :-( Is there an after hours crisis T line you can call where you live? Maybe get a little help to make it through to Thursday?

I can always call my T's office and leave a message, but that's about it unless I got really lucky and she had something before Thursday.

(((((SDRL))))))) We all know how these things happen. You're holding it together, and I'm sure you can hang in there another day. Maybe you should call your pdoc too. If you're rapid cycling like this you might need more than just talk therapy.

I have learned that meds. only work for a time and then they lose their effectiveness, and something has to change.

The internal turmoil that you are feeling is triggering these emotions. You just have to wait it out for 2 more days and if you can do that, GREAT, but if you can't, call a friend, a relative or a crisis hotline just to talk about how you are feeling.

Hang in there! I will be thinking of you.

Coming here to talk about it was a great choice!! Good for you!! It always helps me when I do. Although...I wish I realized I was manic yesterday....I was here, but not talking about that. At least you know when you're stressed etc. You could be like me and oblivious, and not know until the aftermath. Good job coming here!!

I texted my friend and we chatted about random stuff and it was a good distraction. Then I worked all day today (7am-3pm) and there was almost no time to feel much of anything, and now I'm just too tired to have any real emotions.