Flying high yesterday, I am a real mess today :(

I know I am still manic or something since may now. Yesterday I was so high I was on top of the world. Then at night I grew more and more anxious and agitated, didn't get a wink of sleep. Slept 1 night in last three. Then by this morning I was at the lowest if the low and I'm still there. Crying, guilt, feel so lonely, I'm just clinging.

I'm just a mess. Everyday is completely different. Like I am cycling everyday or something or am I still messy manic? It's utterly confusing. I'm guessing my meds still aren't working . Abilify is making me so restless I cannot stop moving. And I am still not stable. I've also got no appetite, I've lost five pounds in the last few days.

I think I need hugs today. Its really that bad a day.

I am sorry to hear what you are going through. I imagine it is very difficult. Have you talked to your Pdoc recently and let them know what is going on? They might make a meds adjustment that may help.

Maybe you're in a mixed state, call your pdoc OK!

It's very hard to go through such drastic mood changes...I back up too that a call to your pdoc to discuss your difficulties might result in a beneficial med adjustment. So there's no reason to delay, right?

Hugs!! I hope your ok!

Thanks everyone. I have an app in three more days. Just want off this train. Was a really bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better I really hate this and am having a really rough time this round.

(((((Anika)))))

Hey Anika.
I try to ride those days out. Knowing it will get better. I go easier on myself and try get as much rest and sleep as I can; use a Klonopin when necessary, and it can make me drowsy which is a good thing in a mixed episode.

How are you today?

((((anika))) hopefully your p doc will have some answers for ya.

I would call your pdoc Anika. You shouldn't have to live like that.

((((Anika))))

(((((Anika)))))
I agree with everyone else, please call your pdoc. He should be able to help you feel better soon.
Hugs to you

Thanks everyone. Today I'm feeling ok so far.

Its weird for me. Usually when I am mixed I get depressive and manic symptoms simultaneously. Not like this a day up a day down thing. I can't tell if I am mixed or cycling very fast. My boyfriend said I am like a different person everytime he sees me, which is everyday.

Two more days till pdoc. I've had five med changes since may. So I am curious as to what he will say now.

Good for you! Hang in there! Hope thuings will look up for you soon!

I feel for you. I go through the ups and downs pretty fast and hard. I also had the same side effect on Abilify. I was pacing all the time. It was awful. My pdoc put me on Saphris. I seem to have no appetite with it, but I don't have that awful pacing side effect. Sounds like your meds aren't working. Maybe a call to the pdoc might help.

Here is a great big hug! {{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}

Be gentle with yourself.
Warm regards,
Sharon