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Its like the past few weeks have been totally blanked from my mind, i feel absolutely NOTHING.
I really feel like i've been brainwashed or something.
I cant feel emotions about anything.

Has anyone ever experienced this.

I've tried thinking about the things that make me sad, basically trying to wind myself up and find some sadness, but its not happening.
I dont feel like i know anyone or myself either.
But i feel snappy and short fused and really tired.

Snappy and short fused sounds like emotions. I had the feeling of no emotions completely when I was first put on celexa. I had no idea how I'd gotten to a restaurant. wasn't sure what they did there. wandered around for a bit then called my Pdoc. She was shocked I'd gone out for a drive only 2 days into the med. I wasn't warned so....

Yes Widgets! When first dx'd tried lithium & it made me feel that way. Hated it, just felt flat, was frightening & frustrating. Got off that drug...
Hope you get to feeling better soon. It's so hard to try & MAKE your mind do this or that! Maybe a med. change needed??
Take care & hope the mood improves.

When I was on Seroquel XR, I couldn't feel a damn thing, so I went off of it because I felt so flat.

Maybe you do need a med adjustment.

I'm on Lamictal, scared to change it.
I feel detached from the world, i dont feel like its an effect of the meds but it could be, this is better than the mixed state i have been in for a while.

Widgets, apart from your mood, do you have depressive symptoms? Fatigue, oversleeping, heaviness of the limbs, concentration problems? Sometimes when I'm depressed I get numb rather than sad or irritable. I've heard of others who have had similar experiences. So, maybe you're depressed.

I hope that you find some relief soon, and I'm glad you're no longer mixed. I understand, however, that numbness can suck too. What you're describing is a living death.

Yeah, i'm REALLY tired, my head feels heavy, i cant be bothered to do anything. its relief though from the buzzing thats been going on it recently.
I think you may be right, although i hope not.
No matter how bad the mixed episode get at least i'm functional, can work ect.
I'm ridiculously tired.

Classical dissociation. Your mind is tired of being stressed & it is separating you from... Pretty much everything, in fear of more overstimulation. It always goes away, but I do agree, it is very weird. My mind is usually always like this since I don't process emotions normally, but I can usually (if I try really really really really hard) evoke positive reactions out of myself. Positivity is easier for me to connect to.

I also had that reaction on celexa...after the mania wore off.

Yeah this is what i thought. This is why i'm doing EMDR, because i dont process emotions to things that are challenging, but its only big traumas, i've had no big trauma in the last few weeks!

Dissociation often means depression for me. Maybe not a deep depression, but one none the less.

Is it possible that it's med related?
Are u under a lot of pressure and stress?

I've been on 200mg of lamictal for a week now, it's been gradually increased for a while now.
My mood has still cycled as it would but has been steadier.
I feel depressed now. Just want to get out of life.
I've never described myself or recognised dissassociation before, I just spent 45 minutes just scribbling and didn't even realise I'd done it.
My mind always goes so fast No matter what episode or phase I'm in, except this one, I haven't felt like this for well over a year. My depression is pretty much always dysphoria, banging my head against Walls rather than just laying in bed staring at the ceiling for 20 hours.
So yeah I'm depressed now. Great.

Metaphorically banging my head against Walls

(((((((widgets))))))). Just to let you know that someone/us really care & are concerned about you. I don't know anything about UK but do you see you t or pdoc soon? Maybe a med. Tweak or change?? I was on 400 of lamictal at one time & am working back up on my dosage. Had a rash scare but turned out not to be from lamictal. I did feel better on a higher dosage, but everyone is different. Not that this makes anything better, at this moment, but the moods do pass or change to something more livable.
Please take care & go for help if need be.

I am on lamictal tooand afraid to change it. I don't want anything thats going to make me flat like zombie. I have seen that with other drugs. I refuse to tale lithium but my Pdoc wants me on it.