BP Depression and OCD battle

I'm sure others of you struggle with this...
I am so sick of severe depression and OCD battling it out. It's not much of a battle. Depression always wins. But it's so frustrating because it makes me feel even more guilty for all that I cannot get done. Like there's not enough guilt as it is. Just had to get that out there...

Big hugs dear. I don't know if I should call ocd what I experience, but I do react to depression and anxiety with obsessions (as a way out, even though it actually has the opposite effect) I hope you feel better soon

I also battle the same diagnosis.... What is bizarre to me is I'm too depressed to organize my larger living areas ie. kitchen, living room but I have energy to excessively obsess about my pantry and closets. I'm sure there is more to that but thats all I can find energy to obsess about these days.

I understand, I have OCD and am pretty depressed right now. Its not fun times. I am sorry you feeling this too right now. Hugs to you ((((Innerzone)))) I get the guilt too, but please go easy on yourself, or try too.

Oh, let's not forget about the linen closet & ALL the drawers in the house...

I should probably be a little more specific. It's not all the OCD things. It's kind of a mixed bag. Like... the uber-clean, tidy and arranging 'just so' go right out the window. Way out. In every regard, both personal and all surroundings. That's the part that brings on added guilt, because I'm compelled to do them, but can't. And when the depression knocks me out of it so badly that I don't even "see" this, it's disconcerting when glimpses do come, because it's so uncharacteristic.

(Other habits remain, and/or any lessening due to zombification doesn't produce extra guilt -- like counting, bug and germ-phobic things, checking and re-checking. The checking thing I don't do quite as much as usual and seems driven more at such times by being so numb and spaced out that the checking is because I have no idea whether I just did something or not, with less of the component of the checking to prevent "disasterous" things. The germaphobic things might seem related to the clean, but my stuff doesn't bother me, it's "other people's germs" -- stuff out in the world.)

Hmmm. In reading this, it occurs that the first paragraph stuff can also affect and/or be seen by others (along with non-OCD things like not cooking), while the second paragraph stuff is "my" stuff, which doesn't. That might be part of the guilt thing...

Don't know if this makes sense. Might be rambling...