could use some hugs today (trigger maybe)

I could use some extra hugs today, my mind is off in dark places, thinking maybe I'd be better with no meds, I used to be a fantastic artist, and I've pretty much lost it, my meds really interfere with my mind. At least it seems that way. I have been on disability for five years, and I can't help think about what I am not doing. I am sitting here wasting away. What am I doing? I am not proud of myself today. I feel like a wasted useless pill pot. I feel like I am gonna throw up. I know I have been especially needy lately. Man I suck right now!! Is it the drugs ruining my mind, or the bipolar itself, I know I am kindling.. I feel like I'll never be the same

I never had a clear picture in my mind of what my 50's were going to be like, but still, I never expected they would be like THIS (pretty much just as you describe). So I hear ya. Thanks for posting this.

HUGS TO YOU ANIKA

I feel the same way right now. Thats why I am seeking some sort of daytime program. That way I will at least be getting out of the house, refreshing my brain.

Count me in...

((((Anika))))

(((((Anika)))))

I can relate to your frustration regarding disability...I am 19 and currently on disability. It definitely doesn't feel good, but sometimes people need it because they truly can't work. Don't feel bad for using a service that you require at this point in your life. Sending hugs and positive vibes your way!