do you ever feel like...

sometimes i feel like im just waiting for something bad to happen.
like my emotions will be good
and im very productive and feel good about my self for a long time
(like a few weeks),

and then out of no where, there i am
upset about nothing and everything all at once.
and it will just last for weeks at a time (sometimes longer)

it realy stresses me out not understanding why this happens.
or when it will happen again.

it has a big impact on my relationship with my boyfrienad
and on the ammount of work i get done (not to menssion the quality) at school.
it puts strain on all my relationships with those arround me too.

i just want to know if anyone else feels like this?
do you ever feel like you are just waiting for something bad to happen?

Mostly my life's spent in the shoe's-gonna-drop phase. It's just part of my being bipolar, vickienc16. That's the depressive cycle. The manic phase has me knowing I can do it all & often actually doing it! Till I stop doing it, of course. Most of us don't come down from mania too well. If we're balanced, then we don't get too high. Bipolar IIs have hypomanic phases which can be managed to avoid the awful crashes. I'm on meds which sometimes need tweaking or adjusting.

So maybe you're just one of us being "normally" bipolar II? Are you worried about how you're feeling? If so, maybe it's time to see a professional?

Hope it's a good day for you today.

yes I do feel that way...The way I feel is a little bit different though I think...Like I am always afraid that if something good happens, something bad will follow...An example would be.. when I found out I was pregnant (both times) I was so happy, but at the same time, I was scared because I thought something bad would happen and I would lose the baby...I always feel that way..I hate it! I am always hopeful, and pessimistic at the same time....I always am thinking in time something bad will happen.

hmmm.... i agree with the shoe is gonna drop thing, i think thats what i was trying to say.

my doctors have tried several times to diagnose me with bi-polar I, but i will not accept it. i do not feel like i need drugs to controll me.

but sometimes i do agree that they could be helpful, its just that i watched my stepmom try all the drugs they could think of to help her. and they all did some pretty miserable things to her. so that scares me.

thank you for wishing me a nice day, i hope yours goes well for you too

thats exactly what i mean!
everytime something starts to go fantastic for me, something eles comes along to completly ruin it all

Yes, I do most of the time.. I have a personality disorder and it sucks... Actually the part about waiting for something bad to happen happens everyday.. It normally stems from (for me) when I really care about something/ someone, or really happy then that thought comes into my head... because I dont want it to ever end... With a personality disorder that is one of the common symptom... Hope that I helped...

I don't want drugs controlling me, either! One of the reasons I want to stay okay on my own & out of the hospital.

I'm sorry for what your mom went thru. I take my meds only when I want to, to manage my symptoms. The ones that have bad side effects that diminish quality of life my pdoc & I work to replace.

I sometimes imagine horrible scenarios happening. I don't know why, I guess just in case they do happen I will be prepared. I am constantly worried that my chemicals will change and my medications will stop working and something bad will happen. I believe these feelings are normal for our disease.

yeah, i just know that there are reprocutions to only taking them when i feel like it, so i dont even want to start, you know?

I know how you feel I get that way all the time it just doesn't last as long. It's really frustrating to know that your moods can change so quickly and for no reason and I wish that it wouldn't happen, but I guess i've gotten pretty used to it.

Yesterday I had a feeling of cOnstant anxiety . I had nothing I could pinpoint. I just felt anxious and like something bad was going to happen.

Many times when I'm clinically depressed.

well, since i origonaly poasted this,
i have been taking amitriptyline...
there are a few downsides.. but im okay with this.
which is a big step just to take anything,
but i beleive that it's helping
as i have been taking it since before christmas.
yet i still wish to acheive being well
without medications.

I often feel this way too. I have my days of feeling like I am on top of the world and can conquer anything. Then I start to think and all that goes bad. My highs never last long. I try to laugh the feelings of pending doom by saying "If I'm expecting the worst and the worst happens, I was ready for it. But if I expect the worst and good happens, then the good is that much better".

Im always waiting for the other shoe to drop ,,, been this way as far back as i remember .. Its something im working on with my T ,, but I doubt ill ever find the " root" to thinking this way .

Its really hard to change how you fundamentally look at things . I dont know maybe theres hope I can change it .