Pdoc APPt Monday!!

Yes that's me, but me at 19 year old. 23 now. but i drank more then than i do now. was dx'd bp at 20 along with alcoholism. great feeling let me tell ya (sarcasm). And yes I drink as much as I imply, not proud of it. For example, had 8-10 pitchers of beer tuesday night and really didnt feel drunk.

i guess it comes with the territory when you start stealing booze from your parents at 10 and are drinking to the point of blackout by 16.

but it is what it is. gotta do what ya gotta do to get by

I farm, rode bulls, hunt fish. went to college for agricultural mechanics. to quote the new song out "country must be country wide"

I've been depressed i think as a BABY! lol, funny but not funny. My parents did say I was really quiet as a baby. I was probably trying to figure out life's mysteries or something. I was recently drinking wine daily to mute the pain a little, but my husband asked me to stop so i did. Never was a beer drinker. "getting by" stinks! I'm so sick of just getting by! It can work for a long time, but for me I get to a breaking point and cant do that anymore.....

ok shut up, Colleen!

How many hours doyou have left miner?

True True.

No need to shut up Colleen. Its Phil by the way.

I have til at least 6am prolly more like 7 or 8 depending on when my relief gets here and how long it takes us to make corrections. So at least another 7 hours.

Colleen sorry you had a bit of a rough night. I got to talk to my sister tonight too, no she def has more issues than me, I ended up cutting the call very short. Family sometimes hey. I hope you are feeling a bit better. Years.. That has to be hard.

ew. Are you allowed to read a book or something?

Ya She has said horrible things to my parents. I do realize now looking back at my childhood, she was the only one who never treated my like crap. She ALWAYS stuck up for me and was kind to me. All the others used me as a punching bag. I was the youngest and easiest to hurt.

yup once i get the paperwork done and whatever pressing stuff there is, im here just for emergencies. i can read, watch movies, and even nap, on the condition that i can wake up to the phone, radio, or door buzzer if someone needs something. slept for a total of prolly 2 hours last night hahha

Maybe when you are lonely find a book about someone who has beat alcoholism? Or maybe find some other good book that might help you. Can you concentrate enough to read? sometimes i cant

usually but i go over so much paperwork here that a lot of the times the last thing i wanna do is look at more type

Reading a book right now called "FARM"

Is it about a farm?

Its "A year in the life of an American farmer"

hmmmmmmmm....not any kind of book i would touch with a ten foot pole.

Do you have big gardens in the summer?

Well at the house I'm living we have a big garden. but that house sits on what used to be my roomates' great aunt/uncles farm wich is part of the family farm which consists of over 400 interrupted acres. they just got done harvesting the 300+ acres of corn and i gotta go home tomorrow to feed the nearly 60 pigs he has.

I ask because my dad had decent size gardens growing up. Over the years they get smaller and smaller. One year he had the best cantelope you will ever taste in your life. It was amazing. He had chickens too and would cut their heads off and we'd eat them for dinner.

Growing up my grandparents had a 35 acre farm where I started to learn agriculture. I'll never forget the day grandpa was killing chickens and the one got away from him and with no head, ran off into the corn never to be seen again. hahahah

lmao! My dad had like a 1 acre garden It was kinda fun when we were young picking beans and husking corn and stuff. We had a fox that kept sneaking into the chicken coup. My dad would get so pissed! Eventually when he didnt want chickens anymore he just let fox eat them all. I'll never forget the one day when the mailman or delivery person brought us BABY CHICKS! Could you imagine what that would be like for a little girl! OMG so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh i can imagine. Been dealing with kids in the 4-h pig club through my roomate. They get so excited!

I wanted to get a dozen guinea fowl for my farm because they are good 'guard dogs' but they deliver them the day after they hatch and you have to keep the babies warm and safe from the cats and all. It sounds like a big investment of time but I'd love to raise some.

My dad tried to hatch eggs, never worked for him.

K im off to bed. looks like yoda went offline too.
You're on your own now, Phil.

dont do anything i wouldnt do.

nah I always appear offline because I stay logged on 24 hours/day and when I am on I may or may not be in my right mind

Done all my paperwork. Now the waiting game. Or should I go do my outside warehousing tonight? But then what will I do all of tomorrow night when there is no paperwork?

To slack off or not to slack off? I did work 22 hours straight before this shift. i should prolly take a nap since I have to go home and feed the pigs tomorrow and will prolly just hunt the rest of the day. Its the last day of archery deer season and i've only been out once. disgusting.

I hope you get a deer. My family aren't coming in for deer season so I'll let some of my neighbors hunt my land in exchange for some venison. I saw a buck in my back yard a couple weeks ago. I should put out some grain and sit on the back porch and wait on him.