I feel so down and have for weeks. I am already on quite a few meds and I am so angry at my therapist and pdoc. They are so afraid of my mania it seems like they just invalidate how depressed I am. I am not making it to family get togethers, cleaning my apt, bathing (I finally did with so much effort.) I don't get into my pdoc again until next Tuesday and it has been a month since I saw her. I want to be put back on Citalopram 40 mg and she says no lets try Latuda. I feel unheard and just angry at this point. I think the reason they are being this way is this summer I went into a very severe mania and ended up in a psychosis, however that was months ago and believe me I am far from manic now. Anybody else not have their docs take their depression seriously and not want to treat it? I mean I don't just have mania I get severe depression too. I just don't get it. I am so angry, depressed, no initiative for anything I can't believe I was able to do this it must be the anger. Please I hope somebody else knows what I'm talking about I am feeling very alone these days. Thx

Well I kinda know how you feel. I react so badly to antidepressants with mania that I am no longer offered or given them upon request. So I have to fight out the depression alone.

I'm sorry I am in a hurry, but I'd like to talk to you more. Hang in there.

[~Christina]

Passionskyy,
Im so sorry your dealing with a depression that for some reason your doctor doesnt want to address.. I understand your anger also .. Its so frustrating when it seems our medical providers dont seem to really understand how horrible all extremes of BiPolar affect us.

I say keep on pursuing this issue with your doctor and Therapist ! I would keeping explaining how severe your symptoms are..

Good luck and dont let them keep you down!

[kj44]

I'm sorry, I know its awful. I think docs do try to stay away from it,(depression) not validate it, they try to encourage instead. It's very hard to get through, but, remember you have us!!

[nacht]

I am feeling the same frustration right now. The last couple of times I've even brought up antidepressants I was shut down. I know that it's because I've had problems with them triggering mania in the past, but when you're already feeling bad, you just want it to stop. Hang in there.

[kindachaotic]

(((Passionskyy))) I am in the saw boat as some of the others. Can not take AD's, have tried these in 4 different categories & caused mania each time.
My only true mania cause with BP 2 I only have hypomania & even it is rare since medicated.
That being said, I do still have to deal with some level of depression. Some days are better than others, at times I can force myself to do things & am glad I did. Other days, try & force but just can't. Learning not to be too hard on myself

I don't know anything about Latuda & of course don't know what's best for you. Just know you are not alone with the depression.

Thanks you guys. I struggle with really bad depression in the winter and fall. I truly do not think I will go into a mania. Thanks for the support I will keep you all informed on what happens. This sux big time.

I know how you feel. Very often I feel as though my pdoc doesn't listen to me. It's almost as though if I don't make a scene in his office or leave him a pissy message that he doesn't take me seriously. He allows his patients to email him between appointments and I've come to the conclusion that he skims the letters and looks for keywords. Sometimes he will respond to me with something totally off topic or the oppisite of what I wrote him about. I've been thinking of firing him and going to see someone else. Maybe you should consider it as well? We deserve to be heard

An update they are putting me on Latuda to see how I do. If it turns out okay then I will get off Risperdal. They think it is the risperdal that is making me so tired and feeling depressed. Also the seroquel. Bad news is my insurance doesn't want to cover the Latuda so we are fighting them. I still feel so tired all the time. Hungry have gained weight, don't know how much afraid to find out. Hope I can get the Latuda soon I am tired of not being able to think, feel fatigued all the time pdoc said that is latuda and seroquel side effects.

[~Christina]

Sorry now you have to fight with the insurance company over a medication .. Im pretty sure all of us have had to deal with that issue and to be blunt it " SUCKS"

Try to hang in there and hopefully the meds will get you more stable and not dragging tired .

Thanks for keeping us informed

Thanks for the update passionsky. Hope your med change works well for you and that you win on the insurance front. They can be frustrating...

[kj44]

passionskyy, I am on Latuda, Dr. gave me samples, I have been on it for 8 days.Hoping to keep in touch, hardly anyone takes this med. Best of luck!!