[expressiveone]

so I haven't been on risperdal for about 4 days and I am feeling like I am on top of the world. All I have been doing is fantasizing, fantasizing, and, fantasizing. I am doing my best to keep my impulsiveness out of control. I know this is going to sound really bad but all I have been thinking about is drinking, doing drugs and cheating on my husband with whoever!!! This is kind of scary but it is fun at the same time!!! help! do I really need to go onto an antipsychotic?? I kind of want to wait it out because I feel so darn goooood! what to do what to do.....anyone out there know what I am talking about?

[manicminer]

I read ya loud and clear expressive. I went off all my meds (including Risperdal) for 12 days. In that time I slept with strange woman 12 years older than me, drank very heavily, and slept walked with resulted in almost burning my house down.

My advice, take your meds

[expressiveone]

Originally Posted by manicminer

I read ya loud and clear expressive. I went off all my meds (including Risperdal) for 12 days. In that time I slept with strange woman 12 years older than me, drank very heavily, and slept walked with resulted in almost burning my house down.

My advice, take your meds

I am still taking lamictal 75 mg, effexor 150. I guess I need to increase my lamictal dose. I do not want to go back onto risperdal. It gives me anxiety and makes me feel really bogged down and apathetic. I guess I just need to keep myself in check although it is going to be really really really hard.weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

[naturalmanic]

Careful with your meds, you're already on an upper and Risperdal is strong stuff. It may feel good now, I can tell you it feels great and only gets better. But just reading your words it hints that your not yourself. Enjoy it sure, but don't play with fire, don't try to get manic, please. You'll end up with a handful of regrets, in the hospital, jail, or having to take an even meaner drug than Risperdal or lamictal. Consider getting off the effexor. . .and either do the research or go see a professional. Be careful, mania may be fun, but it comes at a high price.

[~Christina]

Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee becareful ..I know the Manic feels great but you can easily put yourself in tons of danger ..

Call your Pdoc or T .. Being "up" feels great but the "crash " and having to pick up the pieces "if you can" ... well some things cant be fixed ..

Please becareful and safe

[expressiveone]

Thank you for your replies...I'm kind of embarrassed at the form I was in last night. I have a pdoc appt on the 15th and until then I am going to continue to keep myself in check and take a risperdal if I have to so I don't do anything that I'll regret. :/

[AniManiac]

Originally Posted by expressiveone

Thank you for your replies...I'm kind of embarrassed at the form I was in last night. I have a pdoc appt on the 15th and until then I am going to continue to keep myself in check and take a risperdal if I have to so I don't do anything that I'll regret. :/

The 15th is a long way away - a lot can happen between now and then. At the same time, it's not very long to stay on the meds you're currently prescribed until a change can be made. So maybe you could consider holding out for another week and letting the professionals help you decide how to manage the meds?

[faerie_moon_x]

I hope you're doing better. Please be careful. Mania may feel good but it isn't good for you both due to possible actions you could take and also the effect it has on your brain.

Maybe you have a nurse or doc you could call if things are getting out of hand.

[expressiveone]

Originally Posted by AniManiac

The 15th is a long way away - a lot can happen between now and then. At the same time, it's not very long to stay on the meds you're currently prescribed until a change can be made. So maybe you could consider holding out for another week and letting the professionals help you decide how to manage the meds?

Yes Ani, I am thinking twice about adding the risperdal back into the mix. My doctor told me to up my lamictal to 100 mg today so I am hoping I will even out soon. I haven't been manic like that in a couple of years. I forgot how exhilarating it feels...sheesh. I definitely don't want to get out of control...my husband works from home so I am under close watch(thank goodness).

[expressiveone]

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

I hope you're doing better. Please be careful. Mania may feel good but it isn't good for you both due to possible actions you could take and also the effect it has on your brain.

Maybe you have a nurse or doc you could call if things are getting out of hand.

Thanks darkheart...Yes I am feeling better today. I am thankful my mind is not racing to the point where I am getting irritable and anxiety through the roof. I hope you start to feel better soon too. I read your other post and I feel for ya darlin. I was able to get 6-7 hours of sleep through the night and I only woke up a few times as opposed to all night like the last week. I hope your sleep improves and we are both feeling better and balanced soon ((hugs))

[expressiveone]

I'm irritable, don't know what to do with myself, feel like I need to rock myself, having intrusive thoughts and I am NOT on top of the world anymore. I just want out of my mind. I have no direction (failed 2 classes and neglected to register on time). dont have a job. have no money. overall confused about my identity in many ways and I overall do not like being me. I wish my husband would leave me as I dont know why he wants to be with someone so miserable and selfish. I have a hard time thinking outside of this box that is my own head and I feel guilty about it. I want to cry but I cant...wishing for a miracle right now...I am on 2 meds and I dont want to add anymore. I am pretty sure my pdoc is going to suggest taking abilify again and I am feeling trapped. I care very little for myself and wish I would be stricken down and put out of misery because I dont want to do it myself.

[expressiveone]

I also keep thinking of hurting myself and I really dont want to do that. I feel very impulsive right now and I wish I could sleep tonite, wake up and feel like the old me before I became this way...now I am crying ( finally)...my mood is all over the place for the past couple of days. I dont even feel like eating which is not a good sign I know.