[Miss Laura]

Hey guys,

Need motivation as I am meant to be starting back at my activities now that the festivities are over with. I really don't want to. I have gotten very lazy over the past few months and struggle with sleep and getting up at a decent hour. I am getting better with the sleeping but it's the getting up that is the real problem.

I just can't be bothered anymore. I use to love going to the Badminton but now i'm like "blah" when I think about going back there. I do have the Depression Group tomorrow afternoon too which I always manage to go to just cause I know sometimes I need to.

My Support Worker thinks my sleep will improve as soon as I start back at my activities and I know deep down she is probably right but I really don't want to go. I use to go religiously but that was cause I had them with me. My Support Worker(s) would come with me and help me get out and about if I was in a Manic or Depressive mood. Now they let me go on my own as I am deemed ok lol! But ever since I was given this priveldge I have never been. I quit Badminton back in November and Tai Chi back in September. I just can't be bothered anymore.

I know this is not good, but I prefer the house to outside.

[BlueInanna]

hi Laura,
Sorry you are going through this . I'm having similar problem. Kids go back to school tomorrow. It's really stressing me out like I can't even wrap my head around it and everything I have to do. I should be asleep already I'm so worried I won't be able to wake up on time. I'm feeling so blue right now and I know it will pass but until it passes I have to feel horrible and sad and worried. I keep crying and don't want to get out of bed, I don't want to leave my house. Everything feels too overwhelming, hurts my head to think even.
Good for you going to a weekly group, that's very good. I should find something weekly like group to go to. It's just so hard getting a schedule going. I'm going to take some sleep medicine tonight and hope things seem better in morning, trying to think positive.

[madisgram]

my T taught me a helpful suggestion. he said set your mind to allow yourself 3 days of not being motivated,etc. tell yourself you're allowed that timeout. but promise yourself on day 4 to get out of self and do what was a challenge before. on day 4 i kept that promise. that empowered me. hope this suggestion may help you too.

[Miss Laura]

Thanks guys,

Hate to be the barer of bad news but, I never went to Badminton or Group today. I'm still in bed at 330pm. I feel so blue. Just really can't be bothered. My Mum has been nagging me ALL day!! My CPN app tomorrow has been cancelled as he is unwell. Kinda glad but kinda sad. Could do with a friendly ear!

[tutitaylor]

Hi Laura- We are here for you! I go through what you go through also. In fact my Mom called to ask me to go to lunch and shopping and I said no. It just felt like too much for me today. What I did do was promise to go with her tomorrow. I allowed myself a "free pass" today, but I must go tomorrow no matter what. Once I get up and take a shower, I feel a little better. I might not be 100% but I will go. Once I get out I usually feel better. If I don't I can always come back home and go to bed. But I made myself try - that feels good. Take it in baby steps. Don't be too hard on yourself! I hope that you have a better day today! Tuti

[Miss Laura]

Thanks Tutitaylor,

I am out from 9am-5pm tomorrow gonna be a long day. Still in PJ's not showered and still up. It's 11.10pm here and I should be getting sorted for bed. But am WIDE AWAKE. I feel drained but am buzzing in a sense.

[BlueInanna]

Those are good ideas, like 3 days off. Have to be understanding and not too hard on ourselves.

I'm weirdly wide awake too when i was so depressed past few days. Today was hell, but I got my child to school, yay! And got to work but it took me hours to just get ready, I was really late, and I left early. ughh things are so hard when i'm blue, like trudging through a marsh.

Hope you got some sleep Laura and that the day goes well. You've inspired me with how you've been going to group for a steady time, even if you didnt make it today. So thank you

[Miss Laura]

Thanks BlueInanna,

I was up for a solid 28 hours and slept for pretty much a solid 20 hours. I feel so tired still.

Awe I am glad I have inspired someone lol! I have been going to The Depression Group for nearly 2 years and have only missed it 3 times lol!