[DamagedAngelXXX]

Life has been really difficult for me lately and the stress has gotten so overwhelming that I've made several really bad mistakes. Mistake number one was quitting counseling, I became really attached to my therapist and I finally had someone that I knew I could trust but she had to get a new job in December so I was forced to go to someone else who I didn't like so I decided to lie and make everything look perfect so that I could get out no questions asked. From there I started self injuring again and then stopped my meds because I couldn't handle stress from school anymore. I'm getting ready for college next year and am also currently taking medical terminology at a local college and the stress has been so bad that I have just completely shut down. I have stopped doing any work, I have stopped eating again, I'm completely off of my meds now but I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no support. Because of how close my first therapist and I were/am I am still allowed to call or text her when I need to but I feel so selfish when I do because its not her job to deal with me anymore, I feel like a bother when I contact her. I'm sorry that this is so long but I just need some advice on what to do, I've gotten to the point where all I can do is sit and stare when everyone has so many expectations of me that I just can't fulfill.

[BuggsBunny]

I would call my old therapist. I think if she gave you permission to call or text, then her caring about you goes beyond her job. You are lucky that you have someone who cares that much. Perhaps she can give you a new referral. Sometimes it takes a few tries to get a Therapist you can connect with, and of course it takes time to build that trust. I would also see my psych doc about restarting meds. When you are under stress it is not the time to go off your meds. More likely is that it is the time for a med adjustment.

It is a good thing that you have recognized your mistakes. Now it's time to fix them, if you can muster up the energy. Start by calling your old T. Then take it from there.