[Jess_CS]

I had really sudden mood swings. One moment I'm on top of the world, can fly to the damn moon if I wanted to then the next moment I feel like complete utter trash. I feel sadness for no reason at all, and when I'm in one of my moods my self image is totally trashed, self esteem nada. People say its hard to follow my train of thought and I've had a record of two suicide attempts. I still have frequent suicidal thoughts.

I have two good friends; both are rarely online. My family, well, they have tried being supportive but now they're just...The idiots are judgmental to the extreme and are selfish down to the core.

It's also pretty hard to think; Im constantly fatigued and have difficulties sleeping. Also, in my mind it's like walking through a fog. It's hard to focus and concentrate. I'm lucky if I can study two subjects a day.

The thing that scares me is that when I'm angry, I've been known to lash out with my tongue. Verbal abuse, just like my mother. But sometimes I lose it and I get extremely violent.

My family is not rich. We don't have money for any therapy.

[cocoabeans]

No one here can diagnose you and even if they could, if you can't see a psychiatrist or at least a GP or, even a therapist, then there is no reason to even have a label.

[Trippin2.0]

Originally Posted by cocoabeans

if you can't see a psychiatrist or at least a GP or, even a therapist, then there is no reason to even have a label.

I disagree. Validation is a reason, and so is self-awareness.
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In response to your question, CB is right, nobody can diagnose you here.
Hope you find answers soon.
Take care.

[Irreplaceable]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I disagree. Validation is a reason, and so is self-awareness.
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In response to your question, CB is right, nobody can diagnose you here.
Hope you find answers soon.
Take care.

Thank you

To the poster, I know that we can't diagnose you, but you do have a lot of the symptoms.

You are on a quest... I wish you the most luck. I know what it is like wondering what exactly is wrong. I fought my diagnosis because I wanted... NEEDED to be sure. I really made both my psychologist and my psychiatrist work for it! In hindsight, it was a selfish thing to do, and probably self destructive, but I know the importance of knowing and I am really sorry you don't know. If it helps you, you might look at the symptoms of adult ADD. That is what I have, along with Bipolar two. They are really similar is some ways and it can even occur with agitation, mania and self destructive habits. I wish you well and hope you can find the answers you are looking for. If you think you may have something like this then don't ever give up looking for a psychiatrist on a sliding scale or ANY resource you can find. I really hope you find something, anything that will help you.

[Resident Bipolar]

As others have said, we are not able to make a diagnoses as none of us are qualified to do so...and if we were, a diagnoses could not be made over the internet.

Someone else may be able to advise what to do. My only advice is that if you personally believe you are bipolar, you should try looking for some self help material.

RB ♥

[BuggsBunny]

Originally Posted by Jess_CS

I had really sudden mood swings. One moment I'm on top of the world, can fly to the damn moon if I wanted to then the next moment I feel like complete utter trash. I feel sadness for no reason at all, and when I'm in one of my moods my self image is totally trashed, self esteem nada. People say its hard to follow my train of thought and I've had a record of two suicide attempts. I still have frequent suicidal thoughts.

I have two good friends; both are rarely online. My family, well, they have tried being supportive but now they're just...The idiots are judgmental to the extreme and are selfish down to the core.

It's also pretty hard to think; Im constantly fatigued and have difficulties sleeping. Also, in my mind it's like walking through a fog. It's hard to focus and concentrate. I'm lucky if I can study two subjects a day.

The thing that scares me is that when I'm angry, I've been known to lash out with my tongue. Verbal abuse, just like my mother. But sometimes I lose it and I get extremely violent.

My family is not rich. We don't have money for any therapy.

Because of the fatigue and the foggy mind, I would start with a visit to my GP. Let him/her take a look at you and make sure there is nothing physically wrong. Then they can refer you to some low cost/no cost help. It is out there. You just need to know where to find it, and your GP should have a pretty good idea.

[bipolarmedstudent]

Originally Posted by BuggsBunny

Because of the fatigue and the foggy mind, I would start with a visit to my GP. Let him/her take a look at you and make sure there is nothing physically wrong. Then they can refer you to some low cost/no cost help. It is out there. You just need to know where to find it, and your GP should have a pretty good idea.

Yeah, this. You could have anemia or something like that.

Even if it's something psychiatric, there are tons of no-cost/low-cost options out there. You just have to know where to look. Doctors often work with social workers who know all about these resources and where to find them. Also, many GP's are able to handle psychiatry cases themselves -- most will prescribe basic psych meds, and some will even do psychotherapy.