prefer be psychotic...

...

how sick I get sometimes

no-one can get me

ever..

I am lost.

I am bipolar..

I am depressed

I am too much!

no-one can handle me

YES.................

we go crazy

to sit in my place and yell at myself!

to tell my brain to shut up

and all I want to do is cry

everyone leave me alone

I hate myself....

but I have to try

.....and do something

this life just has to forgive me!

it's not my fault

I want to know why it's so hard?

I don't care anymore

how come I am crying so much?

it seems I'm upset

today

I thought about ending it

to kill myself

so I wouldn't have to deal with me no more...

but I chose not to

but I hate my brain

I'm not even in my body

I wish it was easier

I can feel my brain

I hate it

I want to rip it away...out of my head

I am so strong

we all are so strong

but I cry my eyes out

it's not our fault

......I wish I could blame someone!

I cannot blame anyone

silverchair

I blame them right now

for making me so distressed

...my brain is not mine...

but it is

and it hurts me

why should I listen to it?

I decide to not listen no more

I hate my head

I am a freak!

it's that simple

.....

I admit

Well, while Im not sure of your posts, there is help out there, you just have to reach out and grab it....and if you arent happy with it, then try something else...there is something out there for everyone but you have try....maybe things would feel different for you if you were able to reach out for some help.