[jaypop30]

I thought yesterday was to good to be true. I thought I finally reached a normal stable point. I was laughing, smiling, and cracking jokes. I was MYSELF for one day. Now I am back to high anxiety and depression that is making me sick. Head is foggy making me unable to think. All I want to do is leave work climb into bed and never come out of my room. I will be leaving on a leave of absence really soon on May 22nd which I so long for. This stupied meds have not kicked in yet and who is to say they are the right ones for me. I feel that they have slipped me into a dark state of mind or perhaps that its just my disorder taking over.

[faerie_moon_x]

Depression is very difficult to deal with. I'm sorry you're having a hard time. It is frustrating how it can shift from day to day, and it takes a while for meds to kick in, often about two weeks. I know it is very hard to do, but when you get home try to keep your mind off things that are sad. I find that even if it doesn't seem funny, I watch comedy shows. I avoid shows full of drama or sad topics. This helps me a little, even when I just sit there blankly not laughing or smiling at all.

I know it seems impossible, but the fog will lift and you will feel better.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by jaypop30

I thought yesterday was to good to be true. I thought I finally reached a normal stable point. I was laughing, smiling, and cracking jokes. I was MYSELF for one day. Now I am back to high anxiety and depression that is making me sick. Head is foggy making me unable to think. All I want to do is leave work climb into bed and never come out of my room. I will be leaving on a leave of absence really soon on May 22nd which I so long for. This stupied meds have not kicked in yet and who is to say they are the right ones for me. I feel that they have slipped me into a dark state of mind or perhaps that its just my disorder taking over.

Yesterday may have been a glimpse into whats to come with your new meds. How long have you been on them and what are they? Just remember we can find a med that makes us feelbetter most of thetime. We will still have bad days now and then just like people without mi. Sounds to me like meds are trying to level just not there yet. Make sure you take them at the same time as you did yesterday. The time you take is important and taking them on a regular routine same time everyday is pretty important too. I know its hard I still forget and I have been on them a few years. I remember when i can tell i havent taken them but by then its too late to save the day.

Hope your meds level out soon and yourback to laughing and being yourself again real soon. Today may just be a bad day, so dont get discouraged. Hugs to you :-)

[jaypop30]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and empathy. I think I will go home close the bedroom door and watch comdey movies tonight. What hurts more is that a have two boys that like to have attention and I can't provide them with the attention they need.

[jaypop30]

Originally Posted by moremi

Yesterday may have been a glimpse into whats to come with your new meds. How long have you been on them and what are they? Just remember we can find a med that makes us feelbetter most of thetime. We will still have bad days now and then just like people without mi. Sounds to me like meds are trying to level just not there yet. Make sure you take them at the same time as you did yesterday. The time you take is important and taking them on a regular routine same time everyday is pretty important too. I know its hard I still forget and I have been on them a few years. I remember when i can tell i havent taken them but by then its too late to save the day.

Hope your meds level out soon and yourback to laughing and being yourself again real soon. Today may just be a bad day, so dont get discouraged. Hugs to you :-)

I have been on lexapro for about a week and 1/2 not quite enough time to tell if the work yet. Doc says it will take up to 6 weeks before I really notice a difference.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by jaypop30

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and empathy. I think I will go home close the bedroom door and watch comdey movies tonight. What hurts more is that a have two boys that like to have attention and I can't provide them with the attention they need.

Just remember children are resillient. They will be ok if you have a bad day and need a break for awhile. Can they crawl in bed with you and watch some comedy? My girls curl up next tome on the couch and watch tv when im really depressed. I dont think they have any idea how much it means to me either. They can get me through some tough times just by being right there so i dont feel so seperated from life.

[jaypop30]

Originally Posted by moremi

Just remember children are resillient. They will be ok if you have a bad day and need a break for awhile. Can they crawl in bed with you and watch some comedy? My girls curl up next tome on the couch and watch tv when im really depressed. I dont think they have any idea how much it means to me either. They can get me through some tough times just by being right there so i dont feel so seperated from life.

They couldn't sit still for the life of them. I only wish I could have their energy. The will bounce from one wall to the next making sure they marked every inch of the house with their presence and then make sure they do it a second time.

[faerie_moon_x]

I am also a mom and yes, that is hard. My advice is to set up things that you can do without actually doing anything. Such as if you're watching a funny movie, pick on the whole family can watch. Let them cuddle with you. Even if you do not feel like human contact, your body actually is craving it.

I have a five year old and he's extremely high energy and running through the house. It is hard for me to deal with his constant repetitive noises all the time. But I also must remember he's just a little kid and not doing it on purpose, so when he's especially crazy I have him go play in his room where he can be loud.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by jaypop30

I have been on lexapro for about a week and 1/2 not quite enough time to tell if the work yet. Doc says it will take up to 6 weeks before I really notice a difference.

Well that was probably a glimpse into what you will feel like on your good days. My best friend takes lexapro and she can feel a difference within a week with full benefits at 4-6 weeks. Sounds like yesterday was a sign that its going to help you :-)

Try to find something funny enough to make you laugh, sometimes its impossible butif you can find something to even just make u giggle a little it will help. Laughter is a natural mood raising tool.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by moremi

Well that was probably a glimpse into what you will feel like on your good days. My best friend takes lexapro and she can feel a difference within a week with full benefits at 4-6 weeks. Sounds like yesterday was a sign that its going to help you :-)

Try to find something funny enough to make you laugh, sometimes its impossible butif you can find something to even just make u giggle a little it will help. Laughter is a natural mood raising tool.

I say she can feel a difference within a week because she usesit for seasonal depression and goes off in the spring and back on in the winter. It workswonders for her depression and her anxiety attacks. Good luck. I pray that it works for you the same.

[jaypop30]

Originally Posted by moremi

Well that was probably a glimpse into what you will feel like on your good days. My best friend takes lexapro and she can feel a difference within a week with full benefits at 4-6 weeks. Sounds like yesterday was a sign that its going to help you :-)

Try to find something funny enough to make you laugh, sometimes its impossible butif you can find something to even just make u giggle a little it will help. Laughter is a natural mood raising tool.

That is good news, glad to hear it is working for your freind. thank you so much for sharing. how many milligrams is she taking.

I was just going to suggest something similar. Good idea Moremi!

Even if you can handle devoting a small amount of time to your boys say even half an hour, watch a show with them, or maybe Lego, Lego can be a nice distraction, same as puzzles. The psych ward I was in had a lot of puzzles and patients would pick one and work on it for a while, they were left out for anyone to work on. It really was a welcomed distraction. That little bit of time might actually help you feel a bit better, and releive some of the stress over being absent.

Do you have any other tools you can use to help get you through? Something that I find very useful for myself is watching things like " the secret" I actually put that on for my son when he is depresed and it really helps his perspective too. Also check out Jon Kabit Zinn on you tube for Mindfulness. My pdoc told me about mindfulness, and since I started working with it I have zero regrets except that I didn't use it sooner.

I hope your meds start to lift this depression, just remember there are lots of ways you can help it along. Hope you start to feel better real soon!

[jaypop30]

Originally Posted by Anika

I was just going to suggest something similar. Good idea Moremi!

Even if you can handle devoting a small amount of time to your boys say even half an hour, watch a show with them, or maybe Lego, Lego can be a nice distraction, same as puzzles. The psych ward I was in had a lot of puzzles and patients would pick one and work on it for a while, they were left out for anyone to work on. It really was a welcomed distraction. That little bit of time might actually help you feel a bit better, and releive some of the stress over being absent.

Do you have any other tools you can use to help get you through? Something that I find very useful for myself is watching things like " the secret" I actually put that on for my son when he is depresed and it really helps his perspective too. Also check out Jon Kabit Zinn on you tube for Mindfulness. My pdoc told me about mindfulness, and since I started working with it I have zero regrets except that I didn't use it sooner.

I hope your meds start to lift this depression, just remember there are lots of ways you can help it along. Hope you start to feel better real soon!

I wil try to remember to look into Jon Kabit Zinn on You Tube to see what that is all about. That sounds interesting but will also take some motivation on my part haven't really had that in a while.

Well it's actually really really easy!!!! That's the best part, you don't need to devote a lot of time to it either. It's more about our perception and just being. Being in the now some say or being in awareness. It's hard to explain.

I picked him out because his videos are engaging, easy to pay attention to, his presence and voice alone makes me feel peaceful, and he has a way of making it interesting. I dunno just watching the videos makes me feel 90% better.

You'll see mindfulness mentioned around here a fair bit. It's used in psychology a lot. I know it's hard to feel motivated to do anything when your depressed. That's part of what depression feeds off of. I try really hard to do the opposite of what my depression says it wants to do. I find that helps lift the depression faster, and better, and also more long term.

Good luck, you know you are not alone in all this, everyone just wants you to beat this.