[ChristySpirals]

I went off meds 5 days ago thinking I was cured, being pissed off I was on an antipsychotic when I wasn't even psychotic, drank 2 of the 3 nights, didn't really eat, drank a lot of pepsi...well here I am lol. I feel physically exhausted, mentally drained and just plain slow. Made an *** of myself infront of my sister, who will in turn tell my mother, all because I thought I was above meds. Now I have to save face with them when I have tried so hard to hide it from them. I feel judged by them, that is why I usually don't pick up the phone when I am feeling like this. Last night I felt chatty and did I ever chat ugh.

So I started meds again this morning, started feeling really wired early today which is not usually like me. Normally I don't get all fidgety until mid afternoon. Scared me enough to take the damn pill. Of course since I haven't taken it in a few days it knocked me flat on my *** and I ended up sleeping so now tonight will be no fun boooooooo.

Words of advice, you aren't cured lol FML

[cocoabeans]

Haha but, did you think maybe the drinking, lack of food and large quantities of pepsi were to blame?

Going off meds, (5 days isn't long enough to adjust) and alcohol don't mix just like trying a new med and alcohol doesn't mix.

Of course, if you need meds now, take the damn pills.

[hamster-bamster]

I forgot - what exactly made you go off in the first place:
- side effects
- ineffectiveness
- the idea that you are now cured
- non-conformity NOS?

[ChristySpirals]

Honestly I couldn't even tell you what was going thru my head. Time concept has flown out the window. The only reason I know this was day 5 was because I checked my journal thingy. I know before I stopped I was feeling really good and was thinking then that I didn't need meds anymore. 2 weeks ago I can tell on my mood tracker that I was high so it was prob cuz of that. Sorry im a little confused myself. Life just kicked my butt this past two weeks is all I know and I'm tired now. Booo

[BlackPup]

Can't count the number of times I've quit my meds... always ended up badly... think I might just stay on them for a change
Hope you are feeling better soon

[~Christina]

Hope you get to feeling better very soon !

I think alot of us just go off meds for any kind of reason .. rational or not LOL

Just take care of YOU and worry about the fallout and stuff that happened while off meds until YOU are back on your feet

Good Luck ~

[RobertDark]

Originally Posted by cocoabeans

Going off meds, (5 days isn't long enough to adjust) and alcohol don't mix just like trying a new med and alcohol doesn't mix.

I think coco brings up a really good point. If you really are hating meds and you plan to go off them, try not to take another drug (alcohol or otherwise) instead of your meds. I assume there is a very low rate of success doing that.

Also like coco said, if you need meds, just take them. Nothing wrong with that.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by ChristySpirals

Honestly I couldn't even tell you what was going thru my head. Time concept has flown out the window. The only reason I know this was day 5 was because I checked my journal thingy. I know before I stopped I was feeling really good and was thinking then that I didn't need meds anymore. 2 weeks ago I can tell on my mood tracker that I was high so it was prob cuz of that. Sorry im a little confused myself. Life just kicked my butt this past two weeks is all I know and I'm tired now. Booo

I hear ya. I just did the same thing and i am kicking myself in the ***. I thought I was cured. I wrote it on my calendar the day I quit taking them. Its was three weeks and then I was back to depression. I feel like a flipping idiot because I told everyone I was fine without my meds. Now here i go popping the pills again. I hate it but i have to. I wish I were normal but the only time I am is when I take the pills. I get so good that i just know Im not sick and start to question why I am taking pills. Duh.... because they are working!!!

[BuggsBunny]

Every now and then I quit taking one of my lesser medications, just because I am sick and tired of so many pills. (I've got a host of disorders and a box full of pills, and I think I'm up to 17 different medications at the moment.) My GP caught me at it with my cholesterol medication last month and when she asked why I wasn't taking it, I told her the truth. I thought I'd get a lecture, instead I got laughter. She called it a rebellion, and said I had until my blood test was due to get over my rebellion and back to a normal blood level. I went back on it.

I think that's what it is with me, rebellion.