Was is manic or hypo?

yeah the meds are helping and I know it will be dangerous to come off of them as one of my biggest issues is paranoia extreme paranoia as I put it. Im haveing a mess load of it tonight. It sucks without meds though its worse. I guess maybe the doc is right he hasnt led me astray yet. I think im gonna go for a bicycle ride. Be back soon. Yippey.

Ha! Thank you! I love this board. Everybody is so freaking sweet!!! (and I'm up in need to chit chat . Sometimes lonely but today a bit bouncy. Love that I've found the race of aliens that ive always been looking for that I belong to. Seriously I've been looking since I was at least a teen. Hehe)

It gets into hypo when your so happy that you feel like you can't die or anything along those lines. It gets into hypo when you feel so good about yourself that you start putting yourself in harms way. As long as your not putting yourself in harms way than its mania.

That's not my experience. I think mania is when the self-check has finally detached.

so Clinte....how did things work out for you?

(answer optional of course)

you made a good trail of thoughts here

I decided to continue my meds and just get over that im Bp but of course going to ask my doctor how he came of with the Dx. Just to see. I know i have been manic but its been so long its hard to tell. I have felt really really amazing good but I dont think manic. Like now for example. I feel like im in warp speed but I know thats not manic. So Im going to ask him how he came up with it.

ah Clinte....I do relate...you "feel like your in warp speed but you know thats not manic"

there is genius in that statement I don't know if you realise?

there is also perhaps ummm...some mania in there as well it's brilliant but hey I'm no way gonna criticise you for that. my guess and hope is that you are at a point in your life where you can be your own guide especially combined with the knowledge you aquire from places like this and even weirdos like me

doctor dudes have much more nouse than they did when I arrived on the medical scene...there is much more at stake much more to account for and it's really possible these days to push them for answers.

so go for it! in the meantime enjoy yourself and be free and and be careful too Clinte....

monkey

I will dblmonkey, thanks. I will have to be careful today as I feel Im floating toward mania or what is defined as hypomania.

...can you describe what is your idea for being careful?...mate you could even help me here

I dont know. lol Not do anything to wreckless.

good enough for me....good advice Clinte

I mean that

sometimes all it comes down to is survival and if we search the minds of everybody on the planet the same thing... eventually

with us though it's often the priority

I feel like a terrible person someone we know is dieing of terminal cancer and I laughed about it.

inside it's likely you fear it happening to you Clinte....(maybe maybe not?)

as time goes by you will discover that all the things around you are not necessarily black and white and OMG I'm seriously borderline and cannot believe I'm writing this it could be ******** entirely!?

thing is...right! lets say I got cancer right now....in my current state of mind I would want you to laugh because ...well I would laugh also...because I would not know what else to do.??

and just quietly be pleased I'm finally outa' here but thats personal and please just laugh don't judge me I'm worn out!

you on the other hand if you got cancer right now I would have no freaking idea what to do respond and it's stereotypical to fall apart and heck when I am nervous I laugh or I get the F outa' there

between hysterical tears and random all else ...us emotionally disfigured tend to choose laughter sometimes Clinte...it's ok you evil bastard

Sometimes laughter is a way of coping with stressful situations. I laughed at my grandpas funeral. I smirked when I had to tell my kids their hamster had died. I also laughed at the event of my own fathers death. It looks bad. But for me it's like the stress of the situation is too much or too uncomfortable that my mind goes the other way so I can cope.

You aren't a terrible person, I am sure there is a valid reason for why you laughed whether it be feeling manic or coping.

Well I dont really know the kid but I still felt bad for him but I laughed and my dad looked at me like wtf is wrong with you. I dont know Im gonna go ride it off. lol on my bicycle of course.