[kyangel04]

I feel like I"m a freak. With all my 'mental and elmotiaonal issues. I have birth defects. My family always make a big deal over it. I just don't know, what to think.

[ArthurDent]

Hugs. Of course you fit in here. I look forward to your posts here. I'd respond to more of your posts, except I'm new here too, and still figuring this place out. lol.

[Travelinglady]

Of course, kangel. Believe me, we folks have all sorts of "issues," physical and/or mental. And you are fitting in just fine!

[kyangel04]

Sometimes, I don't know where I want to post or talk. I feel so wierd, most of the time. My family has always made such a big deal of my disablities. I've always been made to feel different. My mom told be I was born 'brain damaged". and weak.

[~Christina]

Welcome Kyangel !!

There is room for everyone here

Looking forward to getting to know you

[kyangel04]

This a stupid question, where's the best place to post, where you have different stuff. Sorry, sometimes I get a little confused and unsure.

[Trippin2.0]

our little melting pot has all kinds, and there's always room for 1 more. Uhmmm, best place to post? Altho forums are topic based and generally folks stick to related topics, this is NOT the case in the bp section, we're a closeknit group, and post about everything; from what our day was like, family 'stuff', relationship woes, good times, to goals and accomplishments! So if you feel at home, post away dear 1, we are here no matter the topic!

[BlueInanna]

((((Kyangel)))) BIG HUGS! You're in the right place! It can be fun to go check out other boards too, I like reading the dream interpretations forum among others. You basically get to do whatever you want and stay as anonymous as you want

You're a woman, I think, and as such, you belong anywhere you want to be!

I'm glad you're considering joining this group. There are some great people here who've seen it all, come through it all, and are real survivors. They can talk with you about almost anything that's bothering you.

Genetic

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by kyangel04

Sometimes, I don't know where I want to post or talk. I feel so wierd, most of the time. My family has always made such a big deal of my disablities. I've always been made to feel different. My mom told be I was born 'brain damaged". and weak.

my brother always told me I was emotionally stunted. apparently he was a 7th grade psychiatrist! doesn't matter, my mother BELIEVED him! families suck. they only say this junk to the gifted ones, they wouldn't have to say it if it were really true and they weren't threatened by our wonderfulness. i'm serious. they see a spark in us, and for whatever reason - they THINK they are trying to protect us, but really they are trying to protect their own self-esteem. A different family might have encouraged us to shine. We can still shine our light now now. Please feel free to post wherever you want. It will show up as a New Post" where everyone will see it.

[kyangel04]

Thanks everyone, I'm glad to be here with you all. And, yes last time I checked. I'm a woman. lol I'm feeling some better this evening.

[Anneinside]

We all have roles in our families and many of us don't like them. For my sisters we have 1) apologetic, B/C student who is told she excels 2) the cute one with lots of friends, 3) the fat, happy one, and 4) me, the "fragile" one with As/Bs told not to talk about it because I could hurt #1. In many ways, our roles have remained through adulthood.

[kyangel04]

I know what you mean Annainside. My family we're pretty abusive and ignorant. But, in many ways true. They figured, I'd never able to live on my own. I wouldn't be able to work. Basically, totally helpless. I fooled them in lots of ways.
For, many reason, I have very limited contact with my family.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by kyangel04

Thanks everyone, I'm glad to be here with you all. And, yes last time I checked. I'm a woman. lol I'm feeling some better this evening.

Good job Genetic, I did not guess the OP's gender right!

[BipolaRNurse]

kyangel, I'm so sorry you had to grow up in an emotionally abusive family. I grew up in a similar environment, and even though I'm in my 50s and they've all been gone for over 20 years, I'm still battling the effects. I'm morbidly obese (over 300 lbs.) and have permanent emotional scars in addition to being bipolar. But I also have a strong faith in God and a wonderful support system which includes possibly the world's most awesome psychiatrist, so I get by and try to pay forward any blessings that I receive.

Welcome, my friend, and may you find some friendship and comfort here.

[kyangel04]

I"m doing ok this morning. I going to call my pdoc. I have journaling homework to do. I thought I'd do a littl eof that. Just don't want to get overwhelmed.

[Irreplaceable]

Originally Posted by kyangel04

Sometimes, I don't know where I want to post or talk. I feel so wierd, most of the time. My family has always made such a big deal of my disablities. I've always been made to feel different. My mom told be I was born 'brain damaged". and weak.

Wow...Good parenting work mom...Insensitive...And on that note, it's not you, it's them...Those words that came out of your mom confirms that...

[kyangel04]

Thanks, I'm not feeling so lost and alone.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by kyangel04

Just don't want to get overwhelmed.

ya know, that has been my ACCOMPLISHMENT for the past month or so, just not upsetting myself? it's amazing how hard it is. I kinda feel like i'm back at one month old. T says, learning to self-regulate. cos i'll tell ya, I am, and my place is, a freakin mess. but it's okay, we're calming downnnn...
not getting overwhelmed is a good thing. I remember a guy, a friend, in high school told me I was overwhelming. he wasn't saying it to be mean. but I was oblivious - I was blustery and bossy, jUst like my mother - but not on the inside. what a mess. but we're calming down nowwww...