[sugahorse1]

There's some people I don't want to have know about and of the others I don't know if I can expect and support or rather ridicule.
Am a wasting my time and being stupid and should do my best to keep it together? I slept nearly all weekend. And creid the rest

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry things are not going well right now. I hope inpatient will help you get into a better place and on your way to happiness. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you this weekend. Please
Pm me if you feel up to it. Best of luck, see you soon.

[sugahorse1]

I didn't post much this weekend. Had a disaster Sat morning with my horse not getting into a horse box, which partially triggered me. Spent the rest of the day on the couch sleeping. Slept in the lounge 9PM-9AM, then again 11AM-2PM and in bed by 9. Forced myself out to do some grocery shopping. Had those thoughts. Feel lonely. Been living on sedatives. Not in a happy place.
But can't expect bf to understand, don't want work or parents to know

[eloquentdisaster]

Due to the nature of inpatient, there is typically a lot of support, at the very least from staff. Inpatient can be a good way to get away from everything that makes life overly complicated and concentrate only on you and making your life better. Some people need that, some people don't.
I hope it helps for you.

[Clinte89]

I would say going inpatient is a good thing or has been for me anyway. If you feel you need to go in don't hesitate. I'm sure people will understand and your work should let you on medical leave or something. I'm sorry things are going rough right now but try and remember things will get better. Keep your head up

[sugahorse1]

Thanks all. I think my bf will $hit himself, but I can keep it quiet from most others. It's THOSE thoughts that scare me

[BlueInanna]

Hope everyone respects your privacy. It's very personal and only those you want to tell should know about it. feel better soon.

[BlackPup]

Sorry you are struggling. Hope you get the help and support that you need

[sugahorse1]

Bit better now that I'm at work work with some routine. I don't want to be a danger. I am scared I am alone

[Tsunamisurfer]

Sugahorse
I'm really sorry you are struggling so much. I hope your bf does understand and is supportive. If you need to go inpatient, do it. Please look after yourself and get the care you need. I worry about you. You have been struggling for so long.
Loads of hugs.

TS

[Moose72]

I have never stayed in the p hospital but if you need it go.

[sugahorse1]

All hospitals I know here are general hospitals, and you mostly share the wards with other non-psych patients

[Tsunamisurfer]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

All hospitals I know here are general hospitals, and you mostly share the wards with other non-psych patients

Hmmmm! For Bipolar, we particularly need staff with compassion, patience, and knowledge of managing Bipolar, as well as conditions suited to recovery such as uninterrupted sleep at night, and good exercise during the day. Somehow a general hospital doesn't strike me as being geared towards that.

I hope you soon find something suitable nearby, though.

[sugahorse1]

I've been in twice...the same hospital. The one time they just let me sleep as long as I wanted. I know they were a bit concerned because of how many hours I slept, but so be it

[~Christina]

If your feeling scared ,, certainly go inpatient .. Stay safe and get the help you need . Maybe your in need of a med change ? while inpatient doctors can make changes more easily since you will be monitored and safe..

Please take care of YOU

[brokenandalone1234]

I have also thought about going inpatient sometimes. I had a point in my life last year in November where I was a wreck because my ex fiance was in Texas trying to get his CDL. We had never been apart that long and I felt lost without him. I called his mom one day saying I was going to the hospital because I was a wreck. She hated our roommates at the time and she had one of them stay with me. They were moving out that day. She told him to stay with me until she could get there because she was afraid I would hurt myself. I will tell you this if you think you need to be inpatient then go. It could save your life. If you feel like you could hurt yourself then I say go. If you have someone you can call and they can come be with you than I reccomend that to. My exs mom did that with me and I will say this it saved my life.

[dillpickle1983]

If you feel you will be safer, by all means go to the hospital. I just got out on Friday from a 1 weeks stay because I was hallucinating. I find it is much more supportive than being home. Plus they are able to change meds more quickly since you are there for observation. If you don't feel safe, go.

[Trippin2.0]

Melomed has some good psych facilities. Its a seperate wing. I personally recommend Crescent clinic, its a private facility and not very clinical looking, and their pdocs specialize in bp. Medical aid does cover Crescent Clinic. Praying for you Jacky.

[sugahorse1]

I assume it is a lot safer than being @ home with someone "looking" after you? It's 8PM and my bf is still at the pub, I've had 3 drinks @ home already. Saturday I took 8 Klonopin which wasn't too clever. I'll be ok tonight.
I have mailed my pdoc. She has just upped my meds, but maybe we need to do more. There's no-one else that can really be here for me, as I don't want to involve my parents and my best friend has huge issues if her own.
I think I am having delusions - looked up the definition and it fits

[Trippin2.0]

Put down the glass, we're much better company we can even respond. (altho i heard somebody that was convinced their glass spoke back)

[Trippin2.0]

And yes, hospital is way more hands on than your current arrangement. I assure you its safer than being watched from a pub

[Resident Bipolar]

If you feel it would be right, it probably is.
RB ♥

[tnlibrarian]

Inpatient can be a really good thing. There has been once or twice when I really needed it and didn't go. The support and being in a safe environment where you know you won't be judged can be extremely comforting and helpful.

[sugahorse1]

Thanks everyone. I'm still on the fence. But also still alive and also still on too many tranquilisers to think clearly.
I think I often get a kick out of this spaced out zone

[Trippin2.0]

Has your pdoc responded to your email yet?