[Kristiemarie]

I am a hot mess today. Well, was yesterday too.

I can blame it on the pregnancy to others but I know without a doubt, it's not. I have had these episodes for years. Just harder to control them now. Instead of silently dealing with the frustration, sadness, loneliness...I burst into tears. And that in and of itself is frustrating.

I was having a perfectly good day yesterday. Then I find out my husband is going to be doing something without me today (wednesday). Something I wanted o do. I go from fine to pissy, sad, dejected, angry in a few hours. Like a kid ho doesnt get her way. Irrational? Crazy? Yes. But here I am feeling really upset about this. And I can't shake it. He called this afternoon and I started crying again.

Can something bump you out of mania (full blown or hypo) into depression?

I've only been tracking my moods for a short time so I'm still learning where the curves, peaks and falls are...I'm just curious if this is part of it or of I never really hit a high or if I'm imagining everything. I want to arm myself with as much knowledge as I can about bp and really any other mental illnesses because I have been struggling with issues for around 15 years.

Any insight to cycling? Do you just pop in and out? Wake up to them? Slide Ito them?

Thanks!

[Trippin2.0]

I pop and slide, sometimes there's a trigger, but mostly there's not. Its completely random from where I'm standing... Sorry its so rough

[BlackPup]

If your dips are due to perceived rejection then it could be borderline personality disorder. With BP there can be triggers or not.... Have a think about what upsets you and see if talking about it in therapy helps.

[wing]

Pregnancy hormones are certainly a factor in mood swings. Your swings may have nothing to do with BP.

[Kristiemarie]

Black pup, I'd actually thought of that. The reason I haven't before is that bipolar was mentioned at my pdoc appt, not bpd. But it's now something on my list to discuss.

Wingin, yes hormones are somewhat to blame however, I've been this way for as long as I can remember. Pregnancy just seems to make it come to the surface. If that makes sense.

The only reason Id never considered bpd before is that there have been periods (months) where I didn't have these times. Where things like this didn't bother me. But now I have one more thing to talk to the pdoc about.

Thanks guys!!

Yes, a disappointment--if you have a sensitive nature--can trigger a depressive episode, but you do have the ability to modify it until it dissipates.

Use your thinking cap to reduce the intensity of the pain of feeling rejected. Was his excuse valid? Is it important to the economy of the home life? Does he generally keep appointments with you?

If the answers to these questions are yes, then you should make yourself relax by meditating or reading something relaxing.

All is well for you.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by Kristiemarie

I am a hot mess today. Well, was yesterday too.

I can blame it on the pregnancy to others but I know without a doubt, it's not. I have had these episodes for years. Just harder to control them now. Instead of silently dealing with the frustration, sadness, loneliness...I burst into tears. And that in and of itself is frustrating.

I was having a perfectly good day yesterday. Then I find out my husband is going to be doing something without me today (wednesday). Something I wanted o do. I go from fine to pissy, sad, dejected, angry in a few hours. Like a kid ho doesnt get her way. Irrational? Crazy? Yes. But here I am feeling really upset about this. And I can't shake it. He called this afternoon and I started crying again.

Can something bump you out of mania (full blown or hypo) into depression?

I've only been tracking my moods for a short time so I'm still learning where the curves, peaks and falls are...I'm just curious if this is part of it or of I never really hit a high or if I'm imagining everything. I want to arm myself with as much knowledge as I can about bp and really any other mental illnesses because I have been struggling with issues for around 15 years.

Any insight to cycling? Do you just pop in and out? Wake up to them? Slide Ito them?

Thanks!

One of my biggest triggers is being left out of things I would like to be included in. I was an only child and always alone. My cousins were all boys and usually we all played together but then they would decide I was a girl and leave me out. As I got older I had abusive friends who would do things like vanish for weekends and then come back, "Oh, we went camping, everyone was invited but you! You wouldn't have had fun anyway." And then again my family they all go on ski trips, parties, take their kids up in the mountains, etc. But I'm never invited (or my kids either.) A great example is one of my cousins got married out of state in June. The whole family rallied together to make sure everyone got to go... except for me.... I was the only person in my whole family that wasn't there, because I couldn't afford a plane ticket. So I look at all the pictures of the wedding and all the fun stuff they did that weekend, and it breaks my heart.

So, after a lifetime of this, when it happens I can't stand it. So, you're not alone in that.

And yes, it is triggering. I can go from perfectly fine to completely off the wall because of it. I try to rationalize myself out of it but it's like a tsunami of emotion.