[OutlawedSpirit]

Just a curiosity.

From what I've read, I gather it is pretty common to come down from mania and crash hard.

On the other hand, and maybe just because I'm not normal all around, I tend to do the opposite. I can be leveled out for a bit, then I will crash. After I crash I go sky high.

Anyone else like to do things backwards?

Well, I never really had much of a pattern, I could go down or up, down-->up-->stable, or up--->down--->stable or just up then to stable or down and back to stable. I could go up---down---and straight up again with no stability in between. A lot of mine were mixed, but would usually start off as mania and then turn mixed quickly.

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

Just a curiosity.

From what I've read, I gather it is pretty common to come down from mania and crash hard.

On the other hand, and maybe just because I'm not normal all around, I tend to do the opposite. I can be leveled out for a bit, then I will crash. After I crash I go sky high.

Anyone else like to do things backwards?

I don't like to much but I cannot help it...this is what makes me so awkward!

there is no pattern often enough to catch onto.

I can go airborne then feel I'm ready to land heavy but the universal airport is backed up and I need to circle the world.

but yeah I usually explode mid flight!



I don't want to take out nobody on the ground

[faerie_moon_x]

I don't have much of a pattern either, but I'm usually dysphoric most of the time and mixed, or cycling so rapidly I can't tell where one ends and the other begins.

But I think any time someone says "This is what is normal for people with BP," you're going to meet a whole big lot of us that go, "Huh? I don't do that." There is no "normal," we all go through this in our own unique blend of shifting and variations.

[OutlawedSpirit]

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

But I think any time someone says "This is what is normal for people with BP," you're going to meet a whole big lot of us that go, "Huh? I don't do that." There is no "normal," we all go through this in our own unique blend of shifting and variations.

I know that not everyone falls under "normal" but it's the only reference point I really have so far. I originally came here because everything I could find, reference wise, was all starting to look the same, and there are definitely "normals" I don't fall under myself. Sometimes, I think you just can't beat the human experience.

I can say that, at first, when I was DX'd, and I started doing research, there were several times I was like, maybe they were wrong, but seeing all of the things you guys have posted, maybe they aren't so wrong after all

[treehugger727]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

Just a curiosity.

From what I've read, I gather it is pretty common to come down from mania and crash hard.

On the other hand, and maybe just because I'm not normal all around, I tend to do the opposite. I can be leveled out for a bit, then I will crash. After I crash I go sky high.

Anyone else like to do things backwards?

I have no idea which way is backwards or forwards. I can't seem to identify which phase I am in. Sometimes I explore a spectrum of highs and lows in one day. I honestly can't tell if I am on a peak or in a valley unless I am having racing brain that causes insomnia...I could use some direction in this area, too...is there even a "normal" to compare to?

[OutlawedSpirit]

Originally Posted by treehugger727

...is there even a "normal" to compare to?

I love when people ask what 'normal' is. I love saying 'me' even more.

[BlueInanna]

i like to read backwards, actually not sure if i do it cuz i like it or that's just how i do it.
i'm not sure if i have a set cycle for the ups and downs, no don't think so.
having some mania lately and thinking about landing, so it's been bouncy. i feel myself going into depression and am trying to pull myself up before i go there, then i'm having mania again. the mania has been ok this time except for the irritability and insomnia that comes and goes, much preferred to depression.

Yeah I think it unanimous. No pattern. If you can find one "Outlawed" you might have some control on your triggers. I know some of mine but never know where they're going to send me. I usually have a racingheart anxiety with some triggers, get to a super high, and then totally crash. Don't talk for days and never leave the house. Takes forever to come out of.