[tallwaters]

I started to write like an adult all nice and neat and it became big sloppy words like a child. I AM MAD! what at i dont know still. Maybe I am losing my mind finally. maybe this is ok? Im always so nice. Im sure it will pass. I HOPE SO!

[Confusedinomicon]

I don't think it matters how the handwriting is as long as you can express yourself.

Journaling wasn't for me, but it can really help some people.
(I tend to ruminate too much if I start)

[BlueInanna]

my handwriting changes like that sometimes too, best to let it out on the paper, no one has to ever see it. sometimes i write in spirals and will draw doodles or weird faces. i would write on one page "MAD" or "I AM MAD!" and whatever else bad thoughts anything, to just get it out of your body. then i usually burn or tear up the pages, hide the evidence, lol. it will pass, we have bp, another mood will come!

[Seaswept]

I think it's healthy keep it in your journal, don't do it at work! lol

Whenever I get manic my writing get HUGE. I take notebooks and write my thoughts and ideas on every single page along with doodles and drawings. I draw and paint really really well when manic, I always surprise myself when I look at the drawings post mania lol.

And like blue, I definitely tear or burn up all of the pages. Burning is good, its a ritual and feels more permanent.

The funny thing is I never journal when I'm not manic. I'm gonna start.

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by tallwaters

I AM MAD! what at i dont know still.

A therapist of my son's that i really liked taught us that Anger is a secondary emotion to 1 of 4 primary emotions: fear, pain, confusion, or sense of injustice.

That's why it's good to talk about it or write about it when you're angry to figure out what you're mad about.

And then there are tons of healthy ways to express anger. Basically anything that doesn't hurt yourself or someone else. I have handouts on it somewhere. I have a little history of anger problems lol....

[treehugger727]

Originally Posted by Seaswept

I think it's healthy keep it in your journal, don't do it at work! lol

Whenever I get manic my writing get HUGE. I take notebooks and write my thoughts and ideas on every single page along with doodles and drawings. I draw and paint really really well when manic, I always surprise myself when I look at the drawings post mania lol.

And like blue, I definitely tear or burn up all of the pages. Burning is good, its a ritual and feels more permanent.

The funny thing is I never journal when I'm not manic. I'm gonna start.

I also draw and paint well when manic. and blog like a mofo. My writing is almost unreadable when I am racing, though- I can't seem to write as fast as the words come into my head.

Tall- this is gonna sound kinda stupid but have you tried coloring? Like, with crayons. Seriously, it is some good therapy when having a hard time with words. If you don't have a coloring book, just use some paper-I used to do it on old bills or scratch paper even. Sometimes it just feels good to push hard and scribble.

hope you feel better soon...

[hamster-bamster]

Try using a computer perhaps. Although they say that the hand-brain connection is crucial - go figure...

[BlackPup]

I don't think the messyness of your handwriting is just get your thoughts out. If its really bothering you then use a computer
It's great your trying journalling.

[LivyLove]

Journaling really helped me previously, i blogged and journaled for a good half year and got to see a great amount of transformation............. i totally recommended...

Now however with a baby in one hand and manage to make dinner and keep up with house work, it is so hard to journal.. i would love to it totally clears out your mind even if you write things you don't like to read after,,,,

[Victoria'smom]

My writing changes with my moods. What about writing on paper, then type it, and burn the paper. Keep writing

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

A therapist of my son's that i really liked taught us that Anger is a secondary emotion to 1 of 4 primary emotions: fear, pain, confusion, or sense of injustice.

That's why it's good to talk about it or write about it when you're angry to figure out what you're mad about.

And then there are tons of healthy ways to express anger. Basically anything that doesn't hurt yourself or someone else. I have handouts on it somewhere. I have a little history of anger problems lol....

I didn't realize that pain is a primary emotion. I thought it was a sensation.

A sense of injustice explains my anger.

[BlueInanna]

Definitions of emotions, feelings, sensations seem to differ.

But I liked and trusted this therapist, it seemed to make sense to any situation I applied it to.

[BlueInanna]

usually it's some combo of those 4 primary emotions for me...

for example i'm soooo mad at my bf's best friend leaving me nasty vmails. so i start crying and screaming and going nuts.

then to calm myself down i try to figure out what i'm really mad about why im freaking out.

and it comes down to sense of injustice for sure, but also confusion and pain. that wasn't right what he did, i don't know why he did it, and it hurt like a kick in the guts.