feelin' way fragmented!

...don't know how much more of this I can take....?

this terminal re-assembling of damaged personal bits and pieces!

just as I glue one thing in place....another chunk drops away....

emotional clown juggling abstract body parts

and while so determined to be complete...I suspect I re-attach accidently and badly things incorrectly and sadly....

maybe thats why they keep dropping off!

"gotta keep it together!"..."pull ya'self together"

this permanent nagging instruction inside my head spoken!

full of cracks I'm cracking up how come I'm so damn broken?

that'll teach me for running laughing and blindfolded barefoot into a burning building of my life so long ago.

feelings are sooooo weird

being insane woulda' been a great deal ....except for all the confusion...

in the mind and fill the heart
and I find I'm still falling apart

[canacrip]

It is confusing, isn't it. I'm also sick of trying to find what's real. Hang in there! The bad and confusing days do pass.

[BlueInanna]

Hey, that guy's leg is smoking! That can't be healthy!

Here is your lovely jumbled blue and purple mind, J. I propose you don't force the pieces back in place. Acceptance that it may not fit back together just the way you expect, and let some pieces go if they break and drop off. Let them go in a sparkle of white light. If they are emotional pieces, they'll grow back. fill in the gaps with violet flame that cleanses negetive psychic residue, and creates a space for healing.

[Clinte89]

Thats greatly written monkey. I interpret that as a feeling of consistent mind Fudge. Not being able to hold it together not because you cant because your trying but because there may not be enough glue to hold the parts together there may not be strong enough glue to hold things together. By glue I mean support or possibly self satisfying aprovement I know thats not a word I had to make it up. Basically not enough approveing of the self. One thing I will say is even if there is enough glue it is rarley strong enough so that parts that have fallen off may have been previously repaired bits that the adhesive has lost its ability to do any good. If it makes sense or not thats the way I see it. And by you I mean any of us so its not aimed directly at you.

yeah....a smoking leg....now thats some bad habit ! hehe

I really like that puzzle picture....thanks C

Originally Posted by canacrip

It is confusing, isn't it. I'm also sick of trying to find what's real. Hang in there! The bad and confusing days do pass.

yes it is....and thankyou

Originally Posted by Clinte89

Thats greatly written monkey. I interpret that as a feeling of consistent mind Fudge. Not being able to hold it together not because you cant because your trying but because there may not be enough glue to hold the parts together there may not be strong enough glue to hold things together. By glue I mean support or possibly self satisfying aprovement I know thats not a word I had to make it up. Basically not enough approveing of the self. One thing I will say is even if there is enough glue it is rarley strong enough so that parts that have fallen off may have been previously repaired bits that the adhesive has lost its ability to do any good. If it makes sense or not thats the way I see it. And by you I mean any of us so its not aimed directly at you.

maybe we could develop our own bipolar dictionary....

where regular words get upgraded just for us so we get it better.

thanks Clinte....very intuitational what you wrote there...

[Setso]

Hope you feel better
Run windows disk defragment and take a nap at the computer, see If it helps

Btw where can I get a female version of the guy robot thing? I think it would come in handy for my...um...recovery!
Yes.

[Clinte89]

Or very institutional of me lol And we should cause sometimes normal words just dont fit

Originally Posted by Setso

Hope you feel better
Run windows disk defragment and take a nap at the computer, see If it helps

Btw where can I get a female version of the guy robot thing? I think it would come in handy for my...um...recovery!
Yes.

...or



(just ignore the tight shirt thing)

Eugene O'Neill says that "man is born broken; God is the glue that puts him together again"

You know whom I'm talking about--Eugene O'Neill, the playwright.

Gen

[Setso]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

...or



(just ignore the tight shirt thing)

I didn't think this would be possible
But those pics made me actually not want sex

Originally Posted by genetic

Eugene O'Neill says that "man is born broken; God is the glue that puts him together again"

You know whom I'm talking about--Eugene O'Neill, the playwright.

Gen

yeah now thats awesome stuff...!

"His plays were among the first to include speeches in American vernacular and involve characters on the fringes of society, where they struggle to maintain their hopes and aspirations, but ultimately slide into disillusionment and despair."

thats me all over...."the fringe person...disillusioned and in despair"

thanks Gen

(I don't know what them blue bits are for....?) thats wiki-dumb-pedia

Originally Posted by Setso

I didn't think this would be possible
But those pics made me actually not want sex

daheck...I just read?

...being comforted is the ultimate thing...not sex

it's just real hard to get for some...sometimes all the times....comfort not sex

so yep....a natural reaction I guess....broken people only want comfort

but they often look for other things.

reality for the damaged is likely to kill the mood...it's instinct...it's survival first...of self and not the species

I'm glad to see posts from you Monkey

You scared me with this quote

emotional clown juggling abstract body parts

I hate clowns

If only we could try new snippets of code for our brains we, could keep all the parts from coming off?

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by Setso

I didn't think this would be possible
But those pics made me actually not want sex

I think you've been cured by the Dr. Monkey
You should print those out for "those" times Setso lol.

Originally Posted by YYZadd

I'm glad to see posts from you Monkey

You scared me with this quote

I hate clowns

If only we could try new snippets of code for our brains we, could keep all the parts from coming off?

you remind me of Kramer...YYZ...!

some of the funniest parts of 'Seinfeld'...were when Kramer was confronted with clowns...and yet his character was a "clown"....in a way...trippy!

sorry buddy....irresponsibly I continue to introduce the spooky parts of the circus ....

but yeah.....clowns are beyond my comprehension too?

I don't know what they are for?

people don't have to look like that to prove they be stupid sometimes...silly or whatever.

guess thats what got to Heath Ledger?...dunno...he was the nastiest clown ever....and...poor guy...did it too well