Has anyone stopped meds suddenly?

Wow canacrip. Thank you for being honest. I'm not going to stop. At least not suddenly Guess I'm doing somewhat better and hanging on to the idea I can be "normal" and med free.

So many times! Yes, I'm bad for that but, sometimes there were circumstances like my being convinced my doctor wanted me on Zoloft so he could make me crazy so he could lock me up and feed me to cannibals, really! Or going to the psychiatrist complaining of crawling out of my skin, nonsesne thoughts, inability to sleep or eat, hearing things, being more depressed yet not (confused much????) And suicidal only to have him dismiss it all as anxiety and increase dosages.

So, quitting "cold turkey" without supervision or approval was it.

Last time I quit medications, sometime this summer I guess and still not on any, yay!, I just got a bit lazy about making appointments and had enough of "mood stabilizing" effects of them drugs, and side effects, apparently a healthy appetite is less important than having some bipolar symptoms under control??? F that good doctor!

Only once was it bad timing that I quit 'em.

Quitting medication definitely comes with an adjustment phase that is almost about as bad for me as starting any new medication.

Really though, I'd rather play russian roulette with my natural mood states than take pills seemingly randomly selected by some douche bag in a white coat who has never experienced anything like them but wants to tell me what is best!

I did became suicidal and thought everyone was out to get me

It was about October of last year I think. My Pdoc dropped me because of my failure to get back into therapy so I quit cold turkey when they ran out. I was on 400mg lamictal, 3 mg risperidone and 300 mg trazodone daily. To be honest I couldn't tell a difference in how I felt after stopping. I kept asking my hubby and brother if they noticed any difference and they said the only diff was my temper more steady on the meds. As for withdrawal nada.

I have. SSRI's are the worst

This year alone I have stopped and restarted my meds 5-6 times. I really can't help it. I feel better or have been symptom free for a wee while so my stupid head says stop. So I do. Then I am paying for it for weeks after I go back on them with sever side effects.

No matter how many people tell me not to stop, I ignore them. Its like this rebellion streak in me (ironically I have never been rebellious as a teenager) so no idea where this comes from.

Last week I was highly anxious after not taking my meds and lied to my support worker that I was fine even though she knows me well enough to know I was lying. She probably does know I lied and I am dreading seeing her today as I have yet again been off for a few days. I said 5-6 times I have been off this year, that's a lie. I really don't know but its a good few more than 6.

Side effects ugh!! Feeling it today. Its like a sever hangover times a million!!