[sugahorse1]

Been over a year since I was really in therapy. But my life is crumbling. I almost feel like it's make or break time. My pdoc has really upped the dosages of my meds, now let's get a T involved and try sort this out once and for all.
The T is ironically the very first one I ever met, while I was still convinced there was nothing wrong with me, and that talking would NOT help @ all. I think I can do this. I see this as a lifeline.

First app next Wed afternoon... Eeeeeeeekkkk

i really hope it works for you- let me know

personally it never really made much of a diffrence for me

[bluemountains]

Therapy is helpful for me. I hope you find some help as well. Good luck!
Bluemountains

[Steel Lion]

Hang in there, you will get better

Therapy has been hugely helpful for me as not all of my issues were straight bipolar ones. Working through the trauma and PTSD issues has relieved a large portion of my symptomology and now that the bipolarness is pretty much all that really remains, I am able to function with much more stability and have even been able to come off meds. For me, so much of my symptomology and poor coping mechanism where tangled up in PTSD that it was hard to wade through it all. Therapy helped untangle that web of thought issues, reaction issues, trauma issues, etc. so that dealing with the bipolar has become a much less "messy" (as in complicated by multiple diagnoses) task.

[sugahorse1]

Well, that all sounds inspiring!

You'll feel as if a great weight has been lifted from your shoulders when you finish a therapy session.

Take care of yoursef.

Genetic

[ellipsisdream]

Therapy seems to actually be helping me. Sometimes it takes some time and a few attempts to find the right therapist. I finally have a good one- and with someone who is a good match, therapy is very different.

The thing is, do not settle. If you see someone a couple of times and it does not feel right, don't give up. Just try again... (((Hugs)))

[sugahorse1]

I'm just petrified of having to ever tell them that I may feel they aren't a good match...

I really am excited to be able to share a load and start moving forwards. I hope this one is ok

[Clinte89]

Good luck with therapy. I was like you thinking it wouldn't help but I feel a little better each time I go, I go once a week if I can. My t is a good fit and I got luck with my first choice so maybe you will to.

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

I'm just petrified of having to ever tell them that I may feel they aren't a good match...

I really am excited to be able to share a load and start moving forwards. I hope this one is ok

I know this feeling! I went to one lady, and felt like she sat really far away from me, and to everything I'd say, she'd say, "And how did that make you feel?" I think that's all she knew how to say!

So at the end of appointment, I paid her and said, "no thank you, I don't need another appointment." I was so nervous.

Suga, you are paying them, they work for you. If it's not a right match, you can just say, no thanks i don't need another appointment. You don't even have to give an explanation, unless you want to.

I did end up finding some therapists who were Fabulous! I'm so glad you're doing this, good for you!! And good luck with it being a good match!

[Anika.]

Suga, i'm glad you are going to give it another go! I hope it's a good fit and benefits you.

I had intensive out patient therapy twice and that really helped me a ton, especially when it comes to depression, and also just healing from my past. I really became unstuck and was able to move forward with my life. With the depression, I learnt so many ways to deal with it that I can usually pull myself up and out of it fairly quickly now and it doesn't become severe anymore. It was definatly worth the work.

I hope you find the same! Let us know how your app goes. The best of luck to you!

[faerie_moon_x]

I hope it works out well for you, Suga. I hope you never have to tell someone they're not a good match either. That would give me huge anxiety as well.

[Victoria'smom]

Suga,

I'm glad you are taking another chance. I didn't think therapy was helping and then I realized I'm making healthier choices then before. I hope this therapist is a match and able to help you.

[sugahorse1]

Thank you. I've met her before, but when I was in a different space, and think it's worth another bash.

I am a bit anxious when I was told she has a 2 week "waiting period"... What about a "crisis"???? I can't get all involved in therapy and trusting a therapist, and then know from the onset that they are not likely to be there for me when I may need them?
This is definitely a point I'm going to have to bring up

I just need to be patient and wait until Thursday - the first appointment...

Set your appointments several weeks ahead of time to keep in front of her scheduling issues. That should help a bit.

[sugahorse1]

Today's D-Day. Hold thumbs pocket riders

[sugahorse1]

She was awesome!
She'd noticed I'd learnt a lot intellectualy, but emotionally was still in a similar place.
She must have said twice that she wants to help me. That this was not going to be easy, that we need to be honest and open, that she's going to make me feel my emotions in order for me to work through them.
It felt good to hear she wanted to help me.
She said during the day I can leave messages for emergencies and otherwise mustn't think twice about the hospital. We even discussed if it had been necessary today because I was honest with her.
I want this to work. I told her this was the final straw of make or break

[Anika.]

I am so glad it went so good.

I think you can make it. Keep it up, glad you were open and honest, only way to help ourselves.

[BlueInanna]

This is good news Suga, thanks so much for sharing. She sounds like a great therapist, so happy for you!

[sugahorse1]

Thank you - I really need this. I can't keep relying on friends and others and just overwhelming them