anyone got some?....got any?

I got just a little bit

I got a little bit it must be like some kind of spiritual desperation I would be completely f.ucked without it!

the energy that makes me move hardly much and it sure seems like hardly much if anything....

it's like magic mental illness confidence...

it's powerful unstoppable.....

silly amusing glorious funny just outright magic!

It's much harder to let go than to hang on....

and I never did nuthin!

[Anika.]

I got a some, but it's wavering. It's fluid, it's not rock solid. It gets knocked down and turned around. Sometimes there is lots and sometimes none, and not in the places it needs to be. Always trying to shuffle it around. Because I have confidence deficiencies, a deficit.

"I got a little bit it must be like some kind of spiritual desperation I would be completely f.ucked without it!"

Yeah I think so too.

I swear a bit....oops!

must be a personal confidence?

...but the spiritual one is much better ....

i swear a bit ...oops!

[Clinte89]

I am lucky at this point to be very confident, so much so I actually told my grandma to stop *****ing at me and leave me alone as Im not someone you want to piss off anymore than I am. it felt so ****ing GOOD! I dont think i have spiritual confidence however but personal Im beaming today even though Im hurting at the same time. im confused maybe I dont have confidence maybe that was just anger. lol

[Trippin2.0]

Yeah, I got some too, but certainly not rock solid. I have confidence in my abilities in the work place,in my intelligence, and in my character.Character confidence is my definite strong suit tho, I've always had a strong sense of self, and doing my darndest to respect my character, and not mould it into someone else's idea of who I should be... but then I lack ALOT of confidence in my appearance, and mostly fake it, and draw on my other sources of confidence to carry me.Yeah,it waxes and wanes

Originally Posted by Clinte89

I am lucky at this point to be very confident, so much so I actually told my grandma to stop *****ing at me and leave me alone as Im not someone you want to piss off anymore than I am. it felt so ****ing GOOD! I dont think i have spiritual confidence however but personal Im beaming today even though Im hurting at the same time. im confused maybe I dont have confidence maybe that was just anger. lol

you are alive Clinte!

whatever you did to arrive at this marvelous undeath!

you give me confidence!

thankyou

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Yeah, I got some too, but certainly not rock solid. I have confidence in my abilities in the work place,in my intelligence, and in my character.Character confidence is my definite strong suit tho, I've always had a strong sense of self, and doing my darndest to respect my character, and not mould it into someone else's idea of who I should be... but then I lack ALOT of confidence in my appearance, and mostly fake it, and draw on my other sources of confidence to carry me.Yeah,it waxes and wanes

you throw some alphabet at me Lia and I'm buried in your confidence....you are supremely confident....and yeah.....so what about the other stuff...

yeah it comes and goes

thats why we need each other to fill in the empty spots...



you give me confidence when I got none....

[Trippin2.0]

James we fill in eachother's empty spaces, I like it

[Anika.]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Yeah, I got some too, but certainly not rock solid. I have confidence in my abilities in the work place,in my intelligence, and in my character.Character confidence is my definite strong suit tho, I've always had a strong sense of self, and doing my darndest to respect my character, and not mould it into someone else's idea of who I should be... but then I lack ALOT of confidence in my appearance, and mostly fake it, and draw on my other sources of confidence to carry me.Yeah,it waxes and wanes

Ya I got it in self.. and lack it in appearance. I have in self, but still do not like to involve myself with my peers, I do not think they will understand me at all. And for the most part, honestly I do not understand a lot of them either. I like them, am I think they will like me, But I am not confidant that they will understand me. So I just stay away... and sometimes that sucks.

God, nm any of that, I am like a sucky tube of minus today.

[Trippin2.0]

I like people, and they like me, not that it would bug me if they didnt. And they know this. Maybe thats part of why they like me? Idk. I'm way past expecting or hoping to be understood tho, yeah. That aint gonna happen. But I dont let that stop me, I'm quite a social creature when I choose to be, but I keep my 'stuff' to myself... People are just for lighthearted company as far as I'm concerned...

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

James we fill in eachother's empty spaces, I like it

perfection Lia....weird how it happens sometimes...

you know I adore you

Originally Posted by Anika.

Ya I got it in self.. and lack it in appearance. I have in self, but still do not like to involve myself with my peers, I do not think they will understand me at all. And for the most part, honestly I do not understand a lot of them either. I like them, am I think they will like me, But I am not confidant that they will understand me. So I just stay away... and sometimes that sucks.

please don't stay away from us Anika....you have an angel inside of you and she is beautiful!!

don't shut her up

she is beautiful and she is you

[Anika.]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I like people, and they like me, not that it would bug me if they didnt. And they know this. Maybe thats part of why they like me? Idk. I'm way past expecting or hoping to be understood tho, yeah. That aint gonna happen. But I dont let that stop me, I'm quite a social creature when I choose to be, but I keep my 'stuff' to myself... People are just for lighthearted company as far as I'm concerned...

Like I added to I am just a sucky tube of minus today.

Thing is, I am social, but I have a hard time with general chit chat, and just surface connections with people. I always want to scratch below the surface, I don't know why, cause the casual nicities are nice. But I crave a deeper connection. And I am full of crap today.

[Anika.]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

please don't stay away from us Anika....you have an angel inside of you and she is beautiful!!

don't shut her up

she is beautiful and she is you

Thanks James, no I come here too connect with people because my peers here, can get me. I value that. Even if they don't get it, they accept me. Seems a little less superficial, don't know what class you fit, what you look like, ohh what can you bring to the table based on first glance. I am gonna stop talking now haha.

[quote=Anika.;2623112]Like I added to I am just a sucky tube of minus today.

Thing is, I am social, but I have a hard time with general chit chat, and just surface connections with people. I always want to scratch below the surface, I don't know why, cause the casual nicities are nice. But I crave a deeper connection. And I am full of crap today. [/quote

I've been full of crap all week....

me monkey beat you just a little bit...

please don't cut your fingernails Anika

scratchy scritchy itchy world.....we need scratchers!

[Trippin2.0]

Nothing wrong with craving that connection Anika chit chat can become verry interesting depending on train of thought and how far OT you can get..its fun and entertaining.And I let them spill their guts,I even clean it up too.I just keep mine to me. And I guess wiping up their guts gives us a deeper connection,and frienships are formed, but on my terms... I let them in, only so far, to see I'm human, and I can suffer too. No further. I used to bond intensely with others. No more tho.

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I like people, and they like me, not that it would bug me if they didnt. And they know this. Maybe thats part of why they like me? Idk. I'm way past expecting or hoping to be understood tho, yeah. That aint gonna happen. But I dont let that stop me, I'm quite a social creature when I choose to be, but I keep my 'stuff' to myself... People are just for lighthearted company as far as I'm concerned...

Lia...you are a magnificent creature!

what a buzz it would be to experience you for even 2 minutes in half.!!

lighthearted company the humans!!....hehe ....you are so gorgeous literal...

kinda scary....but gorgeous

[Anika.]

I bond intensely , with some, and that some is hardly none, Ya the chit chat can be entertaining to a point. I def do not crave deep connection with everyone. And I just figured out why I am on about this right now...

XXXXXXXXXXX

Sooo back to your confidence chat...

seems we are suffering...or maybe better to say "experiencing" the same kinda thing Anika..

yeah you are so deep....unbelievably deep..

extra-ordinary ....finding places to go where others don't bother and just cannot!

yeah you are heaps deep Anika....

but thats ok....it's ok...

I can swim around in the same soup!

I think I'm stuck in the can!

but I can-not!.....ooooh!

oh dear I drifted!

guess I'm pretty used to it.

[Anika.]

Trying to connect the soulful with the X.... it's difficult. Trying to make two ends meet. But maybe it's all good, maybe an explosion where all colours collide is what I want, but maybe it is not what I need. Explosions bring chaos, and destruction... then again they also brought us this, life.

Monkey you are swimming in the deep sea, where the anglers carry their little light over there head....... haha I am just being wordfull..... but look at this creature.... cause it's better than words



It's quite a creation...bioluminescence....."they cannot solely rely on their eyesight for locating prey or their mates. Instead many deep sea fish are luminous, others have extremely large dark-adapted eyes or long feelers to help them locate prey or mates in the dark of the deep ocean." ...They developed an organ to "see" when their eyes cannot serve that function.

Stuck in the can.. nah, maybe you developed another organ so to speak. Cause stuck in the can doesn't offer a way out, just kinda stuck.

Confidence, what a funny thing.

Originally Posted by Anika.

Trying to connect the soulful with the souless.... it's difficult. Trying to make two ends meet. But maybe it's all good, maybe an explosion where all colours collide is what I want, but maybe it is not what I need. Explosions bring chaos, and destruction... then again they also brought us this, life.

Monkey you are swimming in the deep sea, where the anglers carry their little lite over there head....... haha I am just being wordfull..... but look at this creature....



It's quite a creation...bioluminescence....."they cannot solely rely on their eyesight for locating prey or their mates. Instead many deep sea fish are luminous, others have extremely large dark-adapted eyes or long feelers to help them locate prey or mates in the dark of the deep ocean." ...They developed an organ to "see" when their eyes cannot serve that function.

Stuck in the can.. nah, maybe you developed another organ.

Confidence, what a funny thing.

wow what a deep sea dude....kinda nasty beautiful....dangerous !

yikey yikes!!

just imagine what pressure they be under Anika in the dark deep it's just incredible they can make lights and why do they have to be so menacing?

like I mean...?? whats this guy doin?



he looks upset but just goin about his business

"I gotta freak everything OUT!!"......it appears

but it's just so damn deep....to even get anywhere near scared

[Anika.]

Maybe it's because they are not very big, they are actually pretty small. But yeah wtf.. display of confidence, or insecurity? Trying to hide his vulnerability.. I am sure he "appears" to be quite confident to the other fishies.

Originally Posted by Anika.

Maybe it's because they are not very big, they are actually pretty small. But yeah wtf.. display of confidence, or insecurity? Trying to hide his vulnerability.. I am sure he "appears" to be quite confident to the other fishies.

hehe

priceless!