[PiperLeigh]

And it's about &@#! time. I freakin' love this feeling. I feel like life is faster and brighter and better and I get to do all the things I've wanted to do for the last six months but haven't been able to do. I love the rush of being impulsive and pushing boundaries and talking to much. I just need to figure out what to do first.

I'm happy that it's not dysphoric for you. Mine always are. I'm super jealous now!

[sugahorse1]

Enjoy it. I find these periods very rare, and need to learn to enjoy every day I have in it.
It sounds like your hypo mania is a fun and "stable" one.

[BlueInanna]

Sounds fabulous, enjoy, be safe.

[BipolaRNurse]

I'm with you in the euphoria mode right now........just came off Zyprexa again and literally can FEEL myself ramping up. I'm seriously kicking butt at work and getting tons of stuff done, too, which is why I looooooves me these productive, happy, heady times.

[iluvdukie1]

Those feelings are the best, it is always so much easier to get things done! And also, you always have a lot more that you want to do, so it helps you be really productive. Another thing is the whole time, you are like super happy and feel the best. I love it!

[~Christina]

Enjoy

[PiperLeigh]

Bipolar is a witch. Hypo turned ugly and now I'm a crying/panicked/sleepless/laughing mess. My p-doc saw me first thing this morning and switched up my meds. What a rotten trick to feel so awesome and then feel so BAD. I know I sound grumbly. Sorry. I try so hard to keep my posts here upbeat and positive and encouraging even if I feel crummy. But today I am just plain sad and discouraged. I read about people being hypo for weeks and even months. I should be thankful for the five days I got before things turned sour. It was probably the best five days I had all year. But darn it, I wanted more than five days.

[faerie_moon_x]

Sorry it turned on you.

I hope you feel better soon.

[Capricious]

Why do the psychs always interfere with a great mania? Don't worry that you felt grumbly and negative because your posts did wonders for me and you can feel good about that if you want! Super emotions are a blessing not a curse. It's only real if it makes me feel. Be well.

[~Christina]

Awww Piper

I am so sorry your Hypo was so short lived
Be kind to yourself and hopefully the med change will help you quick!

[PiperLeigh]

Thanks. I hate this part. She's given me Ativan (lorazepam) to take twice a day because she feels like an extreme amount of anxiety/panic is making everything worse. Then she doubled my lamotrigine to 200 mg since I had been at just 100 mg. Then she added ambien because I don't feel like I want to sleep more than a couple hours before getting up for the day.

She'd rather use a few other drugs that would be more effective in her opinion, but I have to drive over 100 miles a day to take my kids to and from school and she's concerned about me driving while drowsy so we're trying to make this work for now. I'm pretty upset about all these changes. I find myself going from just fine and happy and cleaning everything in sight to crying my eyes out five minutes later. I don't want to be taking these meds. I've just decided to tell myself that I'd better get a hold on this and deal with it with the meds now at home, or else I risk having to go to the hospital to get it all straightened out and I'll be on meds there for sure. So really I have nothing to lose in taking the meds at home. Might as well be compliant and go along with what they are trying to do to help. And I really do want to be helped so I can be healthy and take care of my family. Sigh. I just wish it were easier. I read the other stories here and I know I have it easier than most here. Some of y'all seem to walk through hell with things when it gets bad. I have no room to complain. I think it will be okay. I'm just exhausted by the back and forth. I want to feel normal. I'd like to know what stable is. And I'd really like to not be the one that is "rocking the boat" in the family. I'd rather be a helper than the helpee...

[Capricious]

I'm glad to hear you say that you know how good you have it. Shifting my focus to the abundance of blessings in my life instead of the lack always makes me feel good, and when I feel good everyone around me feels better as well. I know what it's like to be the helpee too. I love when I can find a way to give back something worthy to those that help me. I know that when I am doing well the people in my life feel much more appreciated and inspired to continue with the love and support instead of maybe obligation or resentment. It sounds like you are driving your kids to school and that is a great thing you are doing for them and something I think you can feel very good about.

I hope the Ativan makes for a nice soft landing. I remember that it did that for me. I only took it at night though so don't know how well you might drive on it.

I took Ambien for two years and I didn't want to stop because I felt like I was getting a good sleep but actually it knocked my body out before my brain knew I was asleep and all night long I was eating, rearranging furniture, opening mail, painting my nails and all sorts of things. I'd wake up and I thought elves had been there, all kinds of things were in a turmoil and I had no memory of doing anything. I ate two hard boiled eggs with the shell on and woke up to what I thought was sand caked into my gums. I had to stock foods that wouldn't lacerate my gums if stored there for hours in my sleep. The new softer foods were yogurt and olives but it's no fun waking up to wet puddles on my sheets either. Instead of just my nails I would paint my whole fingers, monkeys could have done a better job. You may have heard the stories of people actually driving in their Ambien induced sleep, luckily I never did that. I know a girl who takes it and then crafts all night long, she wakes up to sloppy projects, spilled glue and paints etc.

I am impressed with your positive attitude, it makes me feel positive just reading your posts. Please treat yourself kindly and take care.