seriously whats left?

bad thoughts bad things bad stuff bad thoughts bad sh...it!

I am not like the others here much like the others here but unlike the others here I cannot be specific cannot detect a problem select a problem anyone here will know this....brings me exceedingly exceptional pain and isolation at times outsider badly and so familiar....

but I'm so shielded unclassified...a disaster....a moody f...k...!

only I really see the moody one...hate it but not enough to die!

...there is an extra-ordinary ammount of thinking that goes on in any mentally ill mind....unimaginable only you know if you know do you know I'm sure you don't want to if you don't know and you agree if you do know about both those things.

it's all very cryptic in the mentally ill world...I call it a defence mechanism...

some people put on a seat belt or lock their door ...I think your thoughts and everyone elses more.

not much can ensure my safety except trusting in myself...and after society has torn me down and called me useless a madman!

then whats left...?

the boy arrived before the man and I trust him now...the boy was just a boy before anything went wrong

You are really manic today dubblemonkey ... been there. Didnt like it much. Feel for you.

I have to go clean my house as per my mother's arrival tomorrow... I wouldn't describe her the way you described yours.

But you always give so much to think about James... have to tear myself away.... I would say what's left? Probably everything.. It wasn't a trick question right?

ok tea r i n g away --------=> I hope you have a trusting kind of day! Or a trusting kind of sleep.... I have no idea what the time and space between you and I actually is.

I have this curious absurd attraction to it...

mania eats the perfect mind ...feeds ...gets it's space back...

yes I am manic....don't feel for me

it's not important...

all that matters is survival

Stay strong MonkeyMan. Still sending good thoughts.

I don't want to be strong Arthur...

strength has only made me weaker.

I understand that completely. Been there, done that. Have hidden it well.

I'll give you the answer when or if I find it first

when or if?...yes very cool AD

it's undefined man!

maybe we...I know I don't want it!...maybe we don't want the answer..

and you know AD...thats ok

Yep. Its ok either way. Cheers mate.

I have a love/hate relationship with my manic self. It's like being on a merry-go-round that keeps spinning faster and faster and you want it to stop but it's kind of scary fun! Hang in there the merry-go-round does stop. Eventually.

Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate

no worries Arthur...

thanks...

sometimes it's beyond being strong...like it's time to let go..!!

no demands....

I don't want to be rescued...I never post anything here

never have ...to be rescued..(pretty sure)

it's expression...

I nearly went mad trying to translate that...thanks

это не было справедливо

take that!

...never give up james, there's always hope.
always a way to start over. like Peg's said, nurture the child (james)

...as for your(Russian?) reply, couldn't figure that one out.

I think it meant .."good luck"..in russian...like 'with me'

but getting another language as a reply just ...well it's not helpfull.

I can never figure out the point? I'm not freaking spanish....Inuit...whatever?

thanks kc...

Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate. It's Italian.. helpful? probably not, sorry. Leave all hope behind, you who enter

It's from Dante's Divine Comedy... it was written on the sign at the entrance to Dante's Hell.

I agree Dante's inferno is a good example I love that quote. I'm sorry your through such a rough time. Things as you know get better... Or so they ever get better, change? Who knows its all a wacky mess.

Hmm.. hopes and wishes do seem to vanish when we're in our hell. but when we come out of it and are thinking clearer, we come up with some ideas and solutions and can feel hope again. So, seriously what's left? Much is left, you just can't always see it or find it. But try to keep your mind and heart open so an answer might come to you. (god i sound so cheezy sorry but i do believe that)

Roses and pineapple - to smell, to eat, to look at. That's your answer. I forget the question...

oh yeah exactly!!...I should have known I see it every freaking day written in a convenient pattern in my cornflakes! if only I looked 6 times then went down the street and bought the wrong dictionary went back to get the right one got ****** cos I had to do it again!

this is not to you Anika...

if anyone wants to talk to me then use freaking english!

I'm already an idiot!...make me more stupid I will make you one!

sorry and thanks

I'll keep it to myself like my mother told me. she did teach me something.

Your not an idiot at all. It's not hard to copy and paste a line from a famous poem either.. I don't even believe in hell so I don't even know how to relate to that. Something like abondon all hope the door that I think isn't there. beats me.

I am gonna go thread bomb some some yolo's now... >.< .. Yolo.. .. gross.

Hehe cornflakes... That was good, wonder what Dante would feel about that... Umm I can imagine I would find my self on thin ice... I will shhh

Anika...sweetheart...I did try to do this and that...i have nothing but respect for famous poets...awesome trippers from elsewhere...

nevermind

whatcha gonna do there little woman?...thread bomb some yolos'

it's ok!....

I don't know what you mean but it's ok...at least it's english.

hey!...thing is !!...I'm not the one who is right just cos I complain...

thats how grew up listening to that!....

Yolo is you only live once... You know how cliches are... In text speak.... Gah!!! I was kidding, I won't do it. I won't drop that in peoples threads...promise.

I respect poets james.. Thats not what i'm giggling about in my head. I got a case of silly. I'll keep it to myself.

P.S.
Yoln

.... I made that one up myself... : shudder :

Ohhhh I haven't had cornflakes in yearsssss ...

hehe Wanna share a bowl?