whats your reality?

...so tempting to go the way of ...

whats normal for you?

but thats not what this is about!

everyone has a superior motivation...

is it just surviving?...is it not dying?
is it keeping others alive?...is it protective?...or self destructive?

is it getting affection?...is it giving it?...is it both?

or is it darker...nasty?....just empty...nothing... beaten down broken and disturbed?

...or even distant beyond magical creative...darkly affectionate and constructive but falling apart...

thats mine

or even distant beyond magical creative

I choose this one.

just realised thats a cool one!

you beat me to it

My superior motivation is making a difference. When I die, I'd like to look back and have somebody say...he really helped me, or he made a difference. I had value.

If I leave this place just a little bit better than I found it, in spite of my issues and failings, even for just one single person, then I'll know I had some value.

The rest of what is I do is just about getting by as best as possible in a world that I didn't create, and I didn't choose to be brought in to.

suddenly I wish I was you AD...

but I don't trust nobility...it's empty hope to me...

wanting the better to be.. after me?

I died along time ago

Don't wish you were me. My world isn't so different from yours.

I'd rather you wished you could buy me a beer

lmao

ok...my shout..

can you carry a whole box of the stuff?

in my world my reality?

there has never been 1 beer..or even 19
there has never been 8 joints but 10...!
never been no powder ....?
tuck right in!...jam that business!

never been more than one girl that broke my heart...

damn it ...i'm stuck!
yep I'm stuck...

so after all my cryptic ******** I'm just a hurt guy...ouch!

and the reality exposes itself

Just one of my problems was whisky. And cops here and there. And a sensitive heart. My box is pretty big too...I've just learned to hide it well these days.

You and I are alot alike. I know this from what you write. But you say it better than I do. So I just ride along your words, enjoying the fact that there is another idiot out there just like me. lol.

You had me at...."I died along time ago"

yes there is another idiot..



...not sayin' you are one...but I trust you..

weird that huh?

I had myself at the same thing...and still survived...

now?

what to do?

is reality fighting for survival?

wtf?...goes on when the enemy is me?

wtf?

"When any daisy in the field is fit to serve you for a medal; and any worm to be for you a teacher, then joyful are the stars to pose upon your chest, and ready is the Earth to be your pulpit."

Weird but it's ok. And just fyi, the word "idiot" was my attempt at humor. To say that we're alike. Don't take it literally. I think you're brilliant. I'd never call you an idiot and mean it.

It is a jest between friends. That's how I meant it.

I live on the edge of the real and the unreal. It's like standing in the middle of a doorway. On one side I see Earth and what it has to offer me. On the otherside I see the vast, endless possibilities. Sometimes the two cross over, the unreal becomes real. Sometimes I forget which is which.

But on earth my adventures are limited by earthly things like money or time. In the other world I am all powerful and nothing can stop me except for my own damn self.

hey DX...I missed the potential offence....even ..

I'm not tuned that way...

my reality is just watching the days go by, not really doing anything constructive

i came to this world with nothing, and it would be nice to be remembered for something little... but if not- then that's okay.

i may not like the situation i'm in- but you get by and you get used to it.

it is what it is..

I want to matter.

to save somebody's life (I think I might have done it already....)
I wanna see Yisrael
I wanna change the way we think of morality and politics, war and peace.

I wanna make impact. Damnit.

Zuh??? did I say something wrong??

U asked..."wtf?...goes on when the enemy is me?"
I struggle with same dilemma. Here is something maybe.........I don't know.

"True freedom is won and lost in the heart. That is the only war worth waging. Engage yourself in such a war, and you shall no longer find the time for any other wars which would become to you abhorrent beastliness and diabolic tricks meant to distract your mind, and sap your strength and cause you thus to lose the great war with yourself which is indeed an holy war. To win that war is to win undying glory. But victory in any other war is worse than rank defeat. And that is the horror of all men’s wars, that the victor and the vanquished equally espouse defeat."

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oops ...another one of my 'lost posts'...
I don't know where it came from and why it went..?
I'm sorry DX...it wasn't meant...

I dunno...oops sorry
you said nuthin' wong...I just went weird off track somewhere...theres a clown in my circus brain that just says stuff for whatever

what you wrote was really vivid and excellent...
I'm confused now cos I don't know what the heck I meant...
oh well...

It's okay. We can be confused together.

okidoki...

thankyou...

In my reality
We're fine, not damaged
Everyone else not like us
Are the weird, damaged, manically depressive ones.