[Confusedinomicon]

Stressed with too much anxiety.

Tired of feeling so much.

trying to find meaning. it seems lately that there is no meaning to anything. numb for the holidays lol. It's all overrated. no time for any of it.

[faerie_moon_x]

Having some trouble reading and responding due to racing thoughts and stress

here and posting as usual... all you need to know really!

[Moreta]

In a panic mode. There's a buyer coming to look at the business my husband works for. If he loses his job, I lose my insurance. Then I'll have to go on the state plan, and my pdoc isn't covered under it. ugh.

My husband told me not to panic and we would figure things out if it happened. But it's hard not to panic about things for me.

[bunnifoo]

I have packages to wrap and mail and I just don't want to. I can't even tell you why the lines won't be that long I live in a small town, but I still don't want to wrap and ship things.

Actually I realize I always dread and hate going to the post office.

[rossiv46]

Today been feeling pretty "normal" which is good cause I was depressed for some time.

[Tink21]

Been 'ok' today, bit better than I have for some weeks....tonight, however I'm feeling pretty good! I'm not tired and even with the meds I'm not slowing down which probably means I'm heading up, up and away!!
Note to self: ring the Consultant in the morning cos think we're heading for a high!
I'm going to be devastated if I don't go up now...been down for so long.

[Clinte89]

Feeling in the spirit of the holidays! Excited like a little kid I've been bakeing all night! Weeee

[liveforfish]

Feeling better on my new dose of meds. Feeling less stress at work now. Tired.

i all ready had my first rant of the day.... a radio station i listen to in australia are having problems with their server so i've just sent them a rather detailed email about how i feel about it

apart from that.. not much. here and suffering

[BlackPup]

Lonely and tired

[sugahorse1]

Anxious and lonely

[rossiv46]

Its 5 in the morning and trying to start my day. I have to be structured so going to the gym then later jiu jitsu and some house cleaning.
I feel don't feel manic or depressed, just anxious, 2 out of 3 not so bad.

cautious of others right now. I am a rapid cycler, but I don't understand the depression and hypo that others are saying come and go within hours. is it true, full blown depression? is it full blown hypo? I know that my episodes are really bad. they are scary and I have no control. is that what people mean, or are they talking about a lesser form of it. for me my emotions run wild. I have to fight for control and never get it, but that is not the same as episodes. I don't want to feed into something that may be exagerrated. can't afford to right now.

[faerie_moon_x]

Still feeling rather agitated and fluctuating all around the board. Restarted my lithium today (finally remembered to get my water bottle.) Feel I will really need it to get me through right now....

[missionscorpio]

Feeling like perfectionism is coming on. Getting a little agitated with posters
Need to monitor this. Was also beginning to tidy up my room and do paperwork etc. This is good but........

[missionscorpio]

Originally Posted by bunnifoo

I have packages to wrap and mail and I just don't want to. I can't even tell you why the lines won't be that long I live in a small town, but I still don't want to wrap and ship things.

Actually I realize I always dread and hate going to the post office.

I am not alone.

[Anika.]

Present kinda, kinda not. Hiding out when I am at home, not that I get to actually be at home for more than a few hours here and there lately. I'm really mentally exhausted after mom's visit. She went home early.. I should be excited and thankful. I am just so tired.

[faerie_moon_x]

Not all here today....

[~Christina]

I'm feeling lousy today ... Big ole cold front has my Fibro flared up so bad. Mentally I am feeling overwhelmed. So yeah today just sucks.

[missionscorpio]

I got nothing done this morning and eventually after 3 weeks finally looked at mail I've been avoiding. Found a money order among it which I had managed to get to pay parking fines and never mailed it. So faced a big hurdle today and got over it. I need to follow up tomorrow to finish what I started. Can't freeze up again. When I do I just surf the net in bad neighborhoods and end up so down.

[liveforfish]

Sad and just blah feeling. We had a Christmas lunch at work today and I wasn't feeling it. Just not in the mood this year.

[BipolaRNurse]

Originally Posted by liveforfish

Sad and just blah feeling. We had a Christmas lunch at work today and I wasn't feeling it. Just not in the mood this year.

You can say THAT again! All I've done for the past several weeks is ride the Bipolar Express---the stress and strain are getting to me and I feel like I'm not too far away from needing hospitalization, although I've never been inpatient and really don't know how bad things have to be before your pdoc says "OK, that's it, you're going in". Suicidal ideation? Check. Severe panic attacks? Check. Feeling out of control and paranoid? Check.

I've never felt this bad at Christmastime before. I've always loved the holiday and made a huge deal of it, and this year I just want to get it over with. I want to escape.......I want to run so far away from all my responsibilities that they can't find me. I don't want to die, I just want some relief from this heavy load I carry with me every day and take to bed with me at night.

[rossiv46]

I was very anxious today and now I'm depressed. I think it's more a depression from many regrets and what a different life I may have had, had I made better decisions. Feeling blue