[gillgirl]

Had a panic attack last night, first one since starting my meds. Really upset it happened at all, was also the first attack my husband has seen. Uhg. Anyway, after I calmed down I fell asleep hardcore for 7 hours. Yet I woke up this morning wanting to go back to bed. First depression since starting my meds. I have an appointment next week to discuss how my first 14 days on meds went and it seems so far away. I just don't feel like dealing with any of it today.

Crappiest thing about the depression today is that it is the first day of my 5 year old sons T-ball practice and I can't even get myself excited, I just want to lay in bed and cry.

[~Christina]

Leaving to see my T in a few minutes. I am actually having a great day

[Confusedinomicon]

I need to use the bathroom and get ready for work and they are replacing the toilets.

....

[Moreta]

Ok day today. My husband is sick, so I have to deal with that. Working on some tax stuff at work and I'm missing $5.99 somewhere, so I have to look at it again tomorrow. Oh joy.

[THE16THDOCTOR]

Eh mediocre day. Kinda down but the shining is on tv now and that makes me smile.

I'm feeling awake and kind of happy. I'm also agitated, paranoid, kind of angry and ready to fight. It feels like I'm not depressed and haven't been depressed, but I know I was seriously depressed yesterday. I want to think I'm free, sane and just great! I should know better, right? I don't think I'm hypo.

feeling okay too.

very cold here again... we're meant to be coming in to summer... where is the nice weather lol

["Tilly may"]

feeling ok, have to work today but i have tomorrow off and so i get a long weekend and thats cool. have to see my orthodontist at the end of the day.

The need to clench jaw and grind teeth is insane. Sweating so much! Enough coffee I guess, even though I only got 2.

Doesn't it really tick you off when the page scrolls before the scrolling wheel has finished moving?................

Originally Posted by Mandrec

The need to clench jaw and grind teeth is insane. Sweating so much! Enough coffee I guess, even though I only got 2.

Doesn't it really tick you off when the page scrolls before the scrolling wheel has finished moving?................

grrrrr yes it does!

on another website i'm on (related to disney) that is always happening to me.

because of it, i end up clicking on the shopping forum when i am meant to go in to off topic

it anoys me

[~Christina]

I am feeling really good , not hypo, Just feels like so many things are falling into place, so all my hard work in T and self care and all of your help is paying off. I am not going to over analyze it or wonder when/if it goes away.

I am living in the right now

i was really upset this afternoon... remember that site i posted about ages ago?

well- we both finally got banned.. and it's well hard to take

we both made good use of it and made a lot of good friends their who we never got other contacts for

evening's been okay though- i got a new bottle of doctor pepper so in my element

[gillgirl]

Really depressed today. Couldn't even get out of bed till 10 am. Just can't shake this feeling today. Thankful for my husband today, he took the boys and let me have some quiet time.

I went hypo during a call with the ex this morning...i mean I could immediately feel the unmistakable thumping in my chest and the heightened self awareness and exaggerated sense of well being. It's only my meds and lack of sleep that allowed me to get any sleep today. I have been humming along ever since. Tried to lay down earlier but it was no use.
Now its time to get ready for work.

[rossiv46]

THey upped my lexapro to 30 mg. It seems to have affected my thought process. I am much slower. Coming home from work I took so many detours, cause my head was in the clouds.

[k123]

Originally Posted by rossiv46

THey upped my lexapro to 30 mg. It seems to have affected my thought process. I am much slower. Coming home from work I took so many detours, cause my head was in the clouds.

Doesn't lexapro make u manic? I was told that if u have bipolar and take it, it's like "crack" to bi polar people.

having that friday feeling today.

always thought it strange that no matter how you feel the rest of the week, you feel kind of cool on fridays

[shery53]

I am feling dpressed and anxious wish I felt cool because it is Fridat

[Moreta]

I feel less angry today. Not sure why I'm angry. Oh well.

[Confusedinomicon]

I messed up trust in my relationship.

Wtf. Things were going so well.

I bought cards that I didn't need and it felt good.

[kala83]

manic episodes have not been that bad at all lately, but omg my depression has been kicking my *** lately.
I am finally starting to come out of the haze due to being around good supportive friends.

[ellipsisdream]

I have had a med change that seems to be mildly activating, but I am holding my own. I have now gone a couple of months without a major episode of either mania or depression. I am grateful.

[gillgirl]

Really anxious today. Can't shake the feeling. Worried I'm going to ruin date night with my husband because of my anxiety. Sometimes I truly hate that I have to deal with this emotional/mental roller coaster.

[BlueInanna]

I hate bp today, hate how I cry so much, hate how I can't get out of bed. Scared for my future, lonely.

[~Christina]

I'm still doing well, My pain is increasing , so I am trying mentally to keep it below a 10. ( here's hoping)

Things could be much worse, so I am going to just keep doing self care and being kind to myself.