[Trippin2.0]

Got nice and drunk on New Years Eve at a club,danced my arse offcaught me off guard tho,& alcohol never suprized me beforeI was drinking cidars & shots at my usual pace,didn't even get buzzed,then immediately after adding 4 tequilas I was like WoooHoo!its like the tequila ignited every drop of alcohol I drank in the hours before had mcd's on the mountain watching the sunrise,slept 3 hours, then watched 3 movies while my cousins slept. Home now, nearly midnight new yrs day

[~Christina]

Didn't have a drink at all last nite( should have) Fibro through the damn roof .. So this crying and sobbing from this crap must stop as I have plans later this evening with my daughter. I can do this and I will do this !

[Trippin2.0]

Oh, how could I forget, HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY! May 2013 be filled with love and joy, blah blah bah... Fk it! May you all be BS - free, have lots of sex, amazing orgasms, buckets of fun and win the lottery too!!!! yip I'm still in a good mood even after discovering EX-SIL is still here, and after seeing how my cousins looked 'recovering' I'm so thankful for my superior liver

[manicminer]

Just over 100 hours since I got up Friday morning from my last full night's sleep, and I've only gotten 12 hours sleep tops. Part of its work, part of its my own stubborness, but still holding on strong. Looking forward to a good night's rest in my bed at home tonight.

[Trippin2.0]

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

Didn't have a drink at all last nite( should have) Fibro through the damn roof .. So this crying and sobbing from this crap must stop as I have plans later this evening with my daughter. I can do this and I will do this !

((((((((Christina)))))))) sending you gentle s

[~Christina]

Thanks Trippin !

Oh I am so happy your had a hell of a New years ! I am thinking I should have gone out like you did

I will be fine .. Pain is pain is pain .. I will beat it back down in the few hours I have before my daughter gets here and we wander out to have more fun !

Happy New Years

my new years sucked... and now here i am- just thinking at how pointless all that was... and now our lives are just back to normal (no matter how boring or interesting they are). it's exactly where we left off

all that for nothing..

[gary290]

My depression and anxiety has kicked up, but the mania is down. I've had a hell of a time making it to the gym. Even hard being at work right now. I'm not interested in anything.

[Trippin2.0]

Doing well, a little flustered but well. Fibro pain dissapeared this morning and my ex and I made up just now so glad he doesn't hate me, it still hasn't sunk in tho...

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Oh, how could I forget, HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY! May 2013 be filled with love and joy, blah blah bah... Fk it! May you all be BS - free, have lots of sex, amazing orgasms, buckets of fun and win the lottery too!!!! yip I'm still in a good mood even after discovering EX-SIL is still here, and after seeing how my cousins looked 'recovering' I'm so thankful for my superior liver

Thank you! Thank you and you, too!

[roads]

hee hee
So we've made it to now ...
not bad for such as we

Non-alcoholic toast to all! *great, smugly hugs, all around*
Shall we see how long we can go forth,
arm-in-arm, without tripping?

[bp09]

Feeling full of energy today! Taking a break from my herbal medicine so that the tolerance to it will go away.

[~Christina]

OK so ..My trip to see my Daughter has been jam packed full of anything and everything. Pain sucks! Life goes on. Things to do ( got my tattoo last night, First one ever) Today more running and eating, Oh I am eating way too much ! We are not leaving until Sunday morning. I have so many more thing to do! A friend to meet on Saturday, I am so excited ! and more running and running!

Hell yes I will most certainly crash when I get home.. It's ok I don't mind at all.

[well]

how do i unsubscribe to thread?

[Travelinglady]

I am feeling better today. I was really struggling with feeling down. I hope I can maintain my level of emotions through this month. Hope all who are suffering will have some good days soon.

[hamster-bamster]

I have weaned myself off Zyprexa so I am now off all APs and so far so good.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by well

how do i unsubscribe to thread?

The option to unsubscribe is on the page called My Profile.

[Confusedinomicon]

agitated.

i need to call my pdoc tomorrow to reschedule an appointment

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

The option to unsubscribe is on the page called My Profile.

you learn something new every day... i never knew you could unsubscribe from threads

[gary290]

Hello to everyone on the Bipolar daily check in thread:

I went to T yesterday. Dealing w/my mania, alcoholism, and hatred of exercise (like it's a flesh eating bacteria). He uses REBT and had me do a ABC/Rational Self Analysis. Cognitive restructuring stuff. So I'm suppose to tell myself exercise is good and helps me to live a better life. I'm not a looser just because my dad said I was. He's dead. He has no vote. Thought I'd share some of that with you. . .

Here's my ABC/RSA:

A. Activating Event: Going To Cardiac Rehab/Exercise

B. Beliefs: I hate it. It’s terrible. It’s so boring and tedious. I can’t stand it.

C. Emotional Consequences: Avoidance. Depression. Anxiety. Frustration.

D. Dispute Irrational Beliefs: Who says I have to hate exercise? That’s extreme! Why is exercise so terrible? Why must I make it so boring? Where is it written that I can’t stand exercise.

E. New Thoughts and Behaviors: I don’t have to hate exercise. I don’t have to love it but I can make it pleasurable. Exercise isn’t terrible, it's just neutral. It’s good for me and helps me live longer. I can make exercise fun with music and mindfulness. I can stand almost anything for an hour. It’s very tolerable. I can reframe the thoughts on the experience.

So now I keep telling myself the E. statements over and over until it feels normal.

I did go to cardiac rehab today and had a good work out. I feel much better now. Depression is better too.

sometimes it seems to matter... what is going on...
but other times isn't it enough to just get by?

who cares what your mental state is like if you don't? but only if you perform, right?
I mean if you can perform to expectation, and you can put your emotions away like they are toxic and can distance yourself far enough away from them... then that's good, right?

that's what I do... I don't have time to feel.... and it's good that way. My goal is to become an unfeeling and performing human... and i've gotten pretty good at it. It's my resolution, cuz without emotions... i would be so happy!!!!!

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

sometimes it seems to matter... what is going on...
but other times isn't it enough to just get by?

who cares what your mental state is like if you don't? but only if you perform, right?
I mean if you can perform to expectation, and you can put your emotions away like they are toxic and can distance yourself far enough away from them... then that's good, right?

that's what I do... I don't have time to feel.... and it's good that way. My goal is to become an unfeeling and performing human... and i've gotten pretty good at it. It's my resolution, cuz without emotions... i would be so happy!!!!!

...and you're right too...happiness aint an emotion!...

it's an experience

emotions have stuff to do but hey!!...not all the time

...and yet with this illness...whatever the hell it is?....

emotions are so damn demanding...cos my brain is screwed...my poor heart tries to think out everything and it just can't

but take away the emotions and things suddenly become so much easier to do. almost robotic and hey, for us, robotic is awesome if it is done freely!!!!

I would rather have my head separated from my body...

...daily life is a punishment....

and I don't want to 'feel' that...that punishment...just for failing at coping with it...cos I am not programmed to cope...not like the others ...whoever the hell they are?

I cope perfectly with my apparent dysfunction!

...and it's arrogant for the rest to imagine they got it right!

yeah!...I'm with you bro

[roads]

landskaperdan, you got by today!
well (by gosh & by golly)
I'm ticked pink for you!
... I came only that short of doing so well,
but am hoping to Gain Ground by midnight ...

James! (((((((James)))))))
you do,
you "cope perfectly"--and I
think admiringly of you for it