Thank you, Roadie.

BPD2 in check for the most part. I do easily swing up into hypomanic state and tend to stay there for a period of time. Luckily the downs have not been so down lately

Originally Posted by SpiritOfAStorm

BPD2 in check for the most part. I do easily swing up into hypomanic state and tend to stay there for a period of time. Luckily the downs have not been so down lately

glad the downs have not been so bad for you

hugs

[Anika.]

Originally Posted by Shayatanica

I don't want to go on Lithium but I don't know what other options I have. It doesn't seem like therapy is going to help me get my act together soon enough, but I'm so worried. It's not specified HOW Lithium works on Bipolar & that makes me uneasy. I don't even like taking my anti-psychotic on occasion -- they don't CHECK YOU to see if your neurotransmitter levels are off. They don't CHECK YOU to see if they've changed over time. That's incredibly uneasy. If you go on a cholesterol or blood pressure med, they check it. But if you're nuts, they just shove medicine in you & hope for the best... I want to do this the hard way. I want to struggle & hate my therapist & work on getting better from the core of my being, change my habits. But it feels like this isn't going to be soon enough because I'm screwing up everything at the price of temporary satisfaction. And it's not JUST the Bipolar but it's definitely making everything a helluva lot worse.

/Rant.

Yup, pretty much. So try the lithium and see what happens, at least they can and do chexk your levels, unlike other meds. You will knowbifbit is helping, doing nothing or hindering, you have enough insight into yourself for that I believe. If it is not helping after the appropriate ammount of time you can make a new plan and ditch it.

I am going to agree with you on the rest, totally right idea. Hate the therapist haha ok but that is funny. I think you will get where you want to go. Just keep the drive to arrive. Don't give up just keep looking for it. And keep doing what works, drop the rest.

[Moreta]

I've been up since 1 am, b/c apparently, no pain meds = no sleep. ugh. This is fantastic.

[roads]

so much difficult stuff to get going on, but very difficult to be effective in even on area.
All my energy focused of one thing still insufficient to get action ... Why???

[ellipsisdream]

I am feeling good today, and no mania or anxiety- just good. I have had a nice week long stretch of this "weather". I am praying it continues.

[Christa87413]

Originally Posted by Roadie

I would take the anti depressant too, Christa--then phone my pdoc and discuss reasons for wanting to make a change before the next dose. Wouldn't do it, though, on my own.

we found that my stabilizers are working, but I need some extra help to stay away from my depression since that will be the death of me, and I become high-risk.. we are in a trial on seeing if the 2 mix well together.

[roads]

Good for you, Christa. Stay in contact with your doc & report anything different.

[gary290]

I've been in a dark depressive episode over the past week or so. Passive si at times. Feeling a lot of anger turned both inward as well as outward. Using coping skills as best as I can. Exercised yesterday after work. Staying in public areas - not isolating in the cave. But still just miserable with myself and life. I really hate bipolar d/o!!!

[roads]

I'm with you, Gary. Lots of situational stuff going on the bipolar is just magnifying. You are the smart one Gary--exercising, not isolating. You will bring yourself out of this!

[~Christina]

I am here ! Cold front is headed my way, so of course my pain is going up up up almost at a 9 already grrrrrr
So the name of the game today is ..... Distraction!

[roads]

* hugs galore , winter warm ones! *
We're getting warmer weather, but acupuncture has a long way to go to start repairing my neck again. Replacement massage therapist won't listen when I try to explain my needs. I'm in such an angry, hateful mood and haven't found a way out ... Not even with rescue animals or music.
Feel like I'm in serious trouble here.

[Confusedinomicon]

I'm relieved

[~Christina]

Oh Roadie

You have a plate that has overflowed into another plate. Dealing with stupid people is not going to help right now, but you must. You know what you need from all the providers. Demand it, you deserve it. Look strong, act strong with them even if your have to fake it. I just want you to feel better. Will probably be a rough road But I will be right there with you, I promise

[roads]

(((((((Christina)))))))
I know, my friend.
The words are hard to find ... I am so tired ... I am so angry.
My resources are depleted. Have been, by other things, before.
We're just beginning to come back, when this hit.

I believe to each of us there is a season. love to you.

So I started my physical therapy on my hand today, it was supposed to be 3 more weeks, but I'm healing really well. I'm feeling slightly encouraged today. No celebrations yet, but it's def. a start.

[roads]

I had acupuncture but neck pain and headache at 7 or so ... Can't sleep again tonight.
Ice helps but not enough. Depression deepens. Fed up with complaining about this.

I absolutely love the goldie with the glasses on your pic, Roadie!!!

BPD2 is acting more like it should be I suppose. One thing brings me up, next thing brings me down. Heart is beating like a drum. Feel like crying but there are no tears....almost, very close, but just not quite to crying...and I feel like weeping. I need a distraction. I dunno...i just want to be happy right now...really truly honestly happy...can't really remember what that feels like.

[gary290]

Originally Posted by SpiritOfAStorm

BPD2 is acting more like it should be I suppose. One thing brings me up, next thing brings me down. Heart is beating like a drum. Feel like crying but there are no tears....almost, very close, but just not quite to crying...and I feel like weeping. I need a distraction. I dunno...i just want to be happy right now...really truly honestly happy...can't really remember what that feels like.

I hear you. I need a distraction too. The depression has been overwhelming recently. The depression makes me wish for the mania. But when the mania hits I hate that too. Simply out of control. Meds aren't working so well. Coping skills just aren't cutting it. Oh well. . .what to do?

[roads]

Exercise? Journal? Volunteer at a shelter and run with the big dogs? Volunteer with therapy horses ... muck out stables, brush down horses, walk them to cool down after they've been working?

... some of my "coping" tips ...

Ahhh....sleep....it does a mind and body good.
BPD2 mostly back in check. I have been in a relatively good mood...even had my daughter put me to the test and I mostly passed with flying colors. Not sure what her deal is though; she has been kinda bratty the last couple days.

[Anika.]

Ok day, crappy night even if I don't want to say it. I am exhausted, work was hard, my body is inflammed. Yoga last night was good. I am feeling stronger muscle wise, mental wise too just tierd.

Running on a few hours sleep, work, walk to get groceries, make dinner, help with homework for a few hours, do chores and now I hopefully can sleep so I can repeat it tomorrow.

*on a better note.. I got a "going above and beyond" thingy from my work today. That was really nice and unexpected. It felt good to be aknowledged and appreciated. almost makes the feeling of wanting to cry because I have to go to work in the moring worth it.

at least there is one positive that stands out!

I do the housework around my place too. I find that it's the times between the housework, the interactions with the kids and the conversations between the loads of dishes and laundry that make it all worthwhile.