[dubblemonkey]

..it's a real shame..!!

and who would imagine that I cannot talk unless I'm smashed!

and every word I ever tapped out here on my keyboard was always way stupid over the limit...

and I choose to change my life today....

so the forum loses a member...and was he ever real?

I guess thats up to you...

I have this wierd illness where I can only communicate when I am off my face....thats how grew up!!

and now I'm going to make the hardest choice of my life....to let it go...

..and conveniently very well done I blew all my cash so I cannot drink again...the shame is not enough...the loneliness is not enough...

what it is?

all mentall illness aside?

I just know it's wrong..

and I aint happy about it...

but hell?...it's now or nothing....

there are people in my life that I love...that I care about...

I still have time to make amends....

I have emptied my heart and soul here..

but it's my family that deserves me

...I have memories that could incinerate this forum....

but I choose to let my emotions burn....

I have to love my family...

and not you

seeya

dm

[optimize990h]

monkeyman, I understand what you feel you must do. I am just going to miss what you have written. If, later, you change your mind, it would be great to read your posts whatever they would be.

[pegasus]

Well, I somehow feel like you are punishing us and I don't know why I feel this at the moment. Why can't you write here when you are not smashed? We'd love you any way that you are, we accept you. I personally don't think it is a good idea to say goodbye to Psych Central, it's a support system for you, why chuck that away? How about just having a break, don't close your account, leave the account there. maybe you'll need us again?

Come back soon! ((( DM )))

[dubblemonkey]

Originally Posted by pegasus

Well, I somehow feel like you are punishing us and I don't know why I feel this at the moment. Why can't you write here when you are not smashed? We'd love you any way that you are, we accept you. I personally don't think it is a good idea to say goodbye to Psych Central, it's a support system for you, why chuck that away? How about just having a break, don't close your account, leave the account there. maybe you'll need us again?

Come back soon! ((( DM )))

I always do what I have to do Peggy T honey...

I really have to straighten myself out....

I have been pissed for nearly a year now....and I'm still not satisfied...

so please don't believe I'm punishing you.....by ...

well?

I don't know what to say?

I guess what I'm afraid of Peggy?...people won't like me ....unless I am vulnerable and creative...

..and I am this way...off my face...

I let everything float....I fly..I drown..I die....i drown

but there is a default setting inside me...

I know it's way old school

there is no time for boys like me no more...

I am inclined to cause trouble here on the forums...

my attitude is eliptic diverse...

so it's best I get myself settled somehow....

my goodbye is not a disheartened thing...

it's a logical thing...

psyche central will function better without me right now....

nite x

Hey I've had an alcohol prob myself. I was a binger when I would get manic. AA didn't work for me. In fact....oh never mind. Have u ever tried or heard of smart recovery, rational recovery, sos, lifering? There are many options. For me once I got a mood stabalizer on board I have no desire to drink. Just remember u have much life to live. I think just take a break sober up (if u want to) and do some soul searching. Don't close the account, just take a break. I wish u luck and well wishes.

[Moose72]

You're leaving again? :-( your words are wonderful.

[~Christina]

James

i'll miss your posts for sure.

you've such a good way of wording things

[Victoria'smom]

James, We'll love you know matter how you are. Please just take a break possibly block the site if need be don't close you account until your gone at least 6 mths so that it's easier to come back if need be.

[Trippin2.0]

You have my email addy and cell number if you need me James.

Do what's in your best interest my friend

Take care James... Remember you have a friend in Texas.

[purpledaisy]

You've got to do what you've got to do.

I was close to leaving recently after some quite hateful comments on a thread when I needed help.

Be safe, James, and come back to see us when you're able.

[faerie_moon_x]

Good luck out there. Maybe get into some help outside the forum so you can heal up and also heal your family bonds. That's an important goal. But, always remember we're also here to help you out. Take care of yourself and remember you're part of the PC Bipolar Forum tribe even if you're not here.

Be well, James, and I hope to see you again here soon.

[pegasus]

Ok, mad typist needs to come back, someone has to match me on these forums, for goodness sake James, come back and save me!!!

[bluemountains]

Good bye, James.

I'll miss you, but if this is how you can heal, I understand. I wish you much success. Just know that we all love you, and wish only the best for you.

Bluemountains

These boards are a safety net, a nest per say for those of us that really need it. They are a place to get it all out and figure out life. But, as with any nest, there comes a time to move on and fly away. Of course, we can always return to the nest, but if we have grown strong enough, and learned enough from the others on here and we are lucky, we will be successful in our flight and soar to the skies.

I'm right there along with you. I have done the same thing, around the same time that you did. I was off of here first though... I'm just reading all of this now. I guess it took you a little longer to reach that point. But you did.... And now your not hyperfocusing on the condition. it makes a huge difference not being on here and just dealing with real life, as opposed to being on here and re opening all of the wounds that would otherwise heal.

I believe that's what you were getting at. At least for me that is true. But I checked in here to look you up. And I can see that my beliefs and opinions are really showing through on here... to the point that I really don't care who I piss off, cuz I'm gonna say what I want to say.

And I want to say that I am proud of this decision that you have made, to focus on your family! As long as you are off, I bet that things are going well, better, manageable even. and with life I bet you are getting on with.

I won't beg for you to come back, cuz I know that by being gone, you are doing what's best for you and hopefully, by being gone, you don't even need the support group.

Those are my wishes for you. My hopes. That life for you right now is such that you can move on and not give the condition any more attention than it deserves.

hope ya took this the right way. I am just trying to say that at some point, we all need to move on. I'm moving on too. I did right before you did lol. haha, I went first! lol. but I came back looking for you. and found some really interesting stuff, that just showed me that I really don't need a site like this. You too? I would assume so, based on everything that you had said. I think that we are on the same page... as usual... together.

well, email me if ya wanna joke around. I don't want to focus on this bp crap... but I'm here for you if you need an ear. I'm here for you via email, facebook, messaging, but prolly not on this site. I got all my notifications off and I'm just too lazy to send Sabby a message to get rid of it. instead, I'll let it ride.

Here's to a good ride we had on this site... And here's to getting on with life!