that's cuz I see things only through my eyes.
there are possibilities out there that I have never dreamed of.
like the inpatient thing....
could that really be for me?
could I take all that I have built up inside,
the things that are killing me...
and take them there....

would they be examined..
sorted through....
put at ease and discriminated against?

or is it just a room that people sit in....
keeping them safe from themselves?

is there ever any kind of help that will examine what is wrong...
when nothing is right.....
or is that just talk therapy.....
that is only somewhat useful to me....
just so I can hear it out loud....

[BlueInanna]

Honestly Dan, I don't feel like the hospitalizations helped my kids a whole lot. I have zero experience with adult facilities. Sure they're going to help a lot of people. And the time to go is when one can't be trusted to not harm self or others.

But what i've seen in the adolescents, and it's been a lot of them, you don't just go get your problems fixed. You're on lock-down, there are people screaming and crying, an overload of rules to follow, a myriad of different psych conditions going on, nurse checking on you waking you up every 15 minutes to make sure you're still alive. Does not sound fun to me. Save your money and let's go to Rio. Jk.... lol?

[~Christina]

I signed myself in 3 times because I wasn't safe. I was suicidal. My Psych ward had mental illness and drug detox patients together.. I did learn from them where to buy the best crack , meth ,heroin and cocaine nothing useful to me of course. Everything is scheduled, some loud people at times, no one scarey, my Pdoc while in there was a complete snobbish idiot.
Inpatient is a good thing tho... med changes can be done much quicker than being out patient. You often meet others worse off than you. In fact I still keep in touch with a couple of people I met there.
I don't get a whole lot of help with my issues there.. For me its always been that I am a danger to myself.

ok. I get it now. sounds like it's Rio or bust lol

[BlueInanna]

My sister checked herself in last year for bp mixed plus suicidal... She really just needed a rest, she should've gone to a spa for a week. Checked herself out next day cuz it was not what she was hoping for. I think she expected some heavy sedation, and to just be able to sleep for days away from demands of kids and family, but that's not really what they did. They even cut back her xanax.

A pdoc who assessed my son years ago told me that she asks sui people if they really want to kill themself or do they just want things to be different. That was a treasure of info she gave me cuz I'm usually able to ask myself that question when I'm in a bad state. And yea, I want things to be wayyy different. Plus I'm ready to say that if anyone ever tries to 5150 me, I really don't like hospitals.

But yea... RIO!! We can dream.