[Doxie mom]

I have four dogs one three year old chihuahua Lola, two 11year old doxies sadie Lou and daisy dukes and a 6 month old doxie Linus. Sadie my 11 year old doxie is my heart dog. I have gotten through so much because of her by my side. I love this dog so much I had might as well have given birth to her. Well one of my obsessive thoughts is having to put her down. The pain I feel when I have these thoughts is unbearable. I literally cannot stop crying and I am not one to allow myself to cry. I get so scared what will happen if something happens to her. Well every winter she gets very stiff and has trouble climbing stairs or getting on the couch this year is the worst. I got her a pair of stairs and every time she goes up them and looks at me with that white face my heart breaks it literally hurts . My puppy is the same color she was as a puppy so that makes her look even older to me p,us her 11 year old sister is dapple and has always had shades of grey so she still looks like a puppy. I don't know I just needed to share my sadness and my fears.

[jadzea]

I totally understand how you feel. We almost had to have our 14 year old cat put down. Our prayers were answered however and she got better literally at the last minute. I was heartsick the whole time she was sick and could not stop crying. Everyone at work knew something was wrong because I looked so sad. All I can say it that you know your baby is going to go someday. You can either spend the remaining time fixating on how horrible it will be when she goes and be miserable or concentrate on how much you love her and how much enjoyment you get from her and be happy. It is not easy but it works.

Love you doggies while you can.