Irritable, situational

I can't even begin to imagine what you girls have been through. I have girls 10 and 12 years old... It would break my heart to see them start to drift from me or their mom. but you two are dealing with addiction and loss..... I just couldn't imagine.

Well, here's what I know about jail. I know someone who spent time in Tent City (that crazy county jail in Phoenix.) She was on the female side. Anyway, she said when she was there she was the only one losing weight. There's a lot of people in there who are addicts and are skin and bones when they go in, their jail clothes just hang on them. But once they are there a while, the clothes start to fit and they start to get their color back. The food sucks and is disgusting, but it's still 3 square meals a day and no drugs, so these girls are getting cleaned up better than they do in their own lives, and many of them actually have appetites (which they don't when on the drugs.)

Of course, jail sucks. A lot of aggresion and so on. Fights over tiny little things. But, she has a lot of self-care issues. Like major ones. Weeks and weeks without showering or brushign her hair. Her hair turns into these huge mats. Well, when she was in there she went in with her hair hard as a rock stuck together. When she came out, it was beautifully brushed and braided. She said all her cell mates took turns working on her hair. So, evne though there is a lot of crap in jail, there was kindess, too.

So, her one time in jail was her last. Hopefully it will be that way for your son. Hopefully this will turn him around. Sometimes people need to lose everything before they see what they had. I know that sucks. I wish it wasn't that way.

Thank you for the support. I cried at every response just now. I'm very raw....

I have 20 more minutes to cry until work meetings start and go until 11am, then try to get him to court by 1:30.

They usually do court on Tuesdays, so maybe this is just a small setup to force him to show up to be incarcerated.

He has been to jail before over the years for different reasons, a few times, usually not more than an overnight. Longest one was the 4 days in November before I got the rehab to take him. He was very scared and paranoid in jail, he withdrew into depression and didn't leave his cell for the 4 days.

They may just decide I'm an unfit parent and make him ward of the state... my baby boy... God this fricken hurts. I know to be grateful he's still alive, trying to and maybe this will save his life, give him a life. But it hurts really bad. Ok, 12 mins left to cry before business meetings start. I want to curl in a ball in my bed.

...even bad boys love their mums C...

even more than the good ones

the baddest boys love their mums more than they know what to do?

today sux...but you are real and you are amazing

let the day suck

it might just anyway

but you are amazing for watching it happen

love....
james

I agree, Blue, he does love you he just can't express it because of a mix of the storm in his head and addictions. He's in there somewhere. I pray that someday he finds his way back.

I'll keep you both in my thoughts all day.

He's refusing to go we're supposed to be there in 10 mins

Ask him what he wants to do instead?

He finally came, the PO was actually compassionate about his anxiety, and his relapse. He admitted his relapse to the judge, and his test today was only positive for THC which they don't worry about. They'd spoken to his teacher who reported straight A's, and that he's doing great with his school work. Just completed World History with an A+, and Economics A-

Judge ordered 2 weeks of ankle bracelet with daily drug testing. I'm relieved and grateful, hoping it's sinking in his kid bp brain that he can't do meth/opiates without getting caught and put in jail. He's an addict in addition to bp it's going to be really hard. He's really lucky he's not in jail today. In 2 weeks, judge re-evaluates and we decide if he goes back to rehab or what. Or he messes up before then and goes to jail.

So grateful this day is over. I think I can eat now.

This is very good news, Blue! I'm glad things went well today

I'm so glad and relieved.

Glad things went well, thanks for keeping us updated