[iluvdukie1]

I think I am pretty much depressed now. All day my thoughts have been generally negative, upsetting, paranoid, and lets just say hateful. I have almost had tears in my eyes multiple times, even during the school day. I have had multiple times when I would get so upset that I would feel like sick, and this has been happening all day. And at times I would become hypomanic for a little bit, and would start saying random things in funny voices, would laugh, mess with people, and at one point I got irritated, wanting to scream at my one friend, almost hitting her, to the point where I started to move hand out towards her to hit her, but stopped before I did. And during that time I also told her that I really wanted to scream at her, and started making her get freaked out by staring at her, and I just started laughing from it. On the bus I was hypomanic, but when I got home I was pretty much depressed since that time. I even had tears in my eyes while writing half of this, so I think I am pretty much depressed, but just swing to hypomanic unexpectedly sometimes. Please comment if you think you feel you might have an idea of what phase I am in, or if you are going through the same thing.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by iluvdukie1

I think I am pretty much depressed now. All day my thoughts have been generally negative, upsetting, paranoid, and lets just say hateful. I have almost had tears in my eyes multiple times, even during the school day. I have had multiple times when I would get so upset that I would feel like sick, and this has been happening all day. And at times I would become hypomanic for a little bit, and would start saying random things in funny voices, would laugh, mess with people, and at one point I got irritated, wanting to scream at my one friend, almost hitting her, to the point where I started to move hand out towards her to hit her, but stopped before I did. And during that time I also told her that I really wanted to scream at her, and started making her get freaked out by staring at her, and I just started laughing from it. On the bus I was hypomanic, but when I got home I was pretty much depressed since that time. I even had tears in my eyes while writing half of this, so I think I am pretty much depressed, but just swing to hypomanic unexpectedly sometimes. Please comment if you think you feel you might have an idea of what phase I am in, or if you are going through the same thing.

sounds like a mixed state I believe thats what they call that. Someone else correct me if I am wrong. It sounds just horrible. So sorry your going through this hun. How old are you?

[iluvdukie1]

Could I private message you? That way we can talk a little more private.

[moremi]

Originally Posted by iluvdukie1

Could I private message you? That way we can talk a little more private.

sure you can anytime

[iluvdukie1]

Thank you so much, I just sent you one.

hope you feel better soon.

hugs

[sugahorse1]

Hope this lifts for you soon. It sounds like a terrible place to be

[moremi]

How are you doing today?

[iluvdukie1]

I have to get a shower, I will private message you when I am finished. Talk to you later!

[Job19]

I know exactly what you are going though because I have been in a mixed state for almost 5 days now. This has by far been the most trying on me since I was diagnosed a year ago. I didn't even know what a mixed episode was until the past couple of days and some heavy research. I just want you to know that you have helped me tremendously just by describing your feelings and actions. I have been in a similar situation once where before I knew what was happening I had my hand raised to my wife...by far one of the most traumatic experiences in my life. By the grace of God I stopped myself before it escalated any further, and honestly that is one of only two times I have actually be saddened to the point of tears since I received my diagnosis.

How long did it take for you to return to a 'baseline' state? Have there been any medications that have helped you with the depression/agression that accompanies a mixed state?

God Bless,

Travis

Livy!!!!! Your back!!!!!! It's good to see you back and talking again!!!!!!!!

I was just wondering how things were going for you!!!!!

So.... how is the counseling? have they determined anything? what about your parents? are they continuing treatment for you?

Don't be shy to post on the boards!