enemies make sense

...I am so "out there"

I don't know how to connect with anyone

I try to help...I try to connect

people here talk about "normal" stuff....

like nobody here has any freaking idea about bipolar

about mental illness

no-one here has any freaking idea about bipolar...

it's just a mishmash of daily crap!

you are all idiots!

and I want to alienate myself

back where I am safe far away from everyone

Trying to make enemies of us didn't work. I know what it is like to feel like no one understands. Still here...

Maybe it's cause we all need a break from mental illness stuff so we don't drown in it, we we talk about everyday stuff. I cannot talk about mental illness all the time, I can't eat, sleep and breathe it all the time because when I did I became an extremely ill person. The more I partake in being sick the sicker I get, physically too. I've been to that place James, I "get it". And that place never gave me anything worth keeping. I choose to focus on living because focusing on dying while I am living is good way to be dead while alive. Am I going to get to focus on living when I am dead, will I get to be alive while I am dead ? I don't think I will.

Other than that James I don't know what to say, you want us to be enemies? Is that was is behind the name calling and put downs? I won't become your enemy or anyone elses. I will say it is not really ok to be calling everyone idiots. I know you are hurting and scared, pushing everyone away.... might not be what you actually want once you are alone.

And Pegs is right... still here.. I am still here too.

You are still here too....

You always give us images, so here's one for you. Yout can't defeat the darkness with more darkness. Sometimes we have to step into the light.

I think your trying to alienate yourself makes you even more desirable because you get it. You really understand what its like to have mental illness you get what its like. We may all be idiots but we are idiots together and we have a good time with it. Just remember we are all aliens just in different stages of coming down to earth and so alienating yourself is not possible around here we like you to much.

ahh I don't think we are idiots, nor is anyone.

Well I don't think so either but I think he's trying to push us away but it won't work James buddy.

Clinte is right..I try to push people away..and I do it like a moody child does.

if I don't understand things...if I feel outnumbered by those that do understand things...if I feel like I'm better off alone?

yeah I push people away...and not just to be separated....I want them to hate me!

therefore I feel justified being crazy..

it's all quite sad really.

and the "you are all idiots"..?

well thats an easy one...it's the same as "f--k the world"

make an enemy of life and everyone in it just even for a moment to separate me from my internal anger!

maybe then I can breathe properly...even for a moment hopefully two.

...and yeah I can get very personal about it...I have done ...did it again.