Damn it: I want to fit in but don't know how

I really don't know what else to say. I need to fit in here but I feel like an outsider, then again 90% of the time I feel like an out sider in my own skin.

Back about 3 days ago I wrote a thread about needing support from people here cause I'm going to be starting Hep C treatments on top of my bipolar meds, then turn around and seemed to insult most of you by saying I don't want to be the site basket case and was more worried I couldn't help you all. What a crock of *****.

Truth is I'm scared, and I don't know how to reach out, never have.
Truth is I need support and don't know how to ask for it or even how to except it.
Truth is I'm a 48 year old man in for the fight of his life and feels completely alone even though I live with a loving partner.

Truth is I just want to fit in and don't know how.

The Wolf

Truth is we're all basket cases on here.
Truth is we all have unique problems on top of our bipolar ones.
Truth is we are all here to reach out for help and try to help others if we can.
Truth is we all care about you because you are already one of us.
Truth is its ok not to fit in. Its ok to be different. Its ok to be YOU

Best wishes and good luck.

Im a 24yr old male with major back problems, alcoholism, and legal issues on top of my bp stuff. I know it sucks, but ya just gotta be strong and keep on keepin on, no matter how bad life shits on you.

Miner is telling it straight, tribalwolf. We all have layers piled up. I'm a 66 yr old bipolar alcoholic woman with no family or close friends, just reinjured my arthritic neck which puts me back 15 yrs in acupuncture treatments that rid me of pain.

No, not looking for sympathy ... just saying sorry I didnt catch your thread the first time--Hep C is scary!! we're here to support you. But we all have multiple issues so may not hear the first time. It's just that I hide in my cave a lot because I'm scared, depressed, etc.

Hang in, keep posting, use the Daily Bipolar Check-In thread.

Roadie

I didn't see your earlier post. And I didn't even know we had a daily bipolar check in thread.

Hope your treatment goes well.

It's ok to be scared.
It's ok to not know how to ask or receive help.
You fit in here, because you are here.

We may all be sitting in front of our computers.
The support and love is very really.

^^^ Well said!!

Good luck with the treatments TribalWolf, that is a lot to be going through. I'm glad you're here.

It's ok TribalWolf, thing is a lot of us feel like that a lot of the time. Many of us have made posts about not feeling like we fit in anywhere. Truth we do fit, just the way we are. We all have something uniqe to offer and it is needed.

What a boring world if we all "fit" in.

I am sorry you are facing this challenge. I know you must be pretty scared. I don't know a ton about the treatment for hep C but I know a little. Quite a few people here have faced the challenge of dealing with Bipolar and physical health illnesses so you are not alone. And you are not alone in feeling scared either.

If you feel comfortable.. post more and tell us more about yourself so we can try to support you and get to know you a bit. This is a safe place to ask for help.

I doubt you offended anyone here with that. And it is hard to reach out, but I am glad you found us here. I was nervous to reach out too, didn't know how to ask for help. But the people here helped me so much and I hope we can help you too.

Truth is I just want to fit in and don't know how.....

when i was depressed last time, i searched net a lot to find out some help,tip... one advice was you actually don't need to be confident, just pretend you are confident... it works most of the time... pretend you fit here,these all are your friends... perhaps you can deceive yourself in thinking you fit here... and honestly aren't we like masters in deceiving ourselves... we think everything is worse when there isn't good reason to think that... all that we can do is try....

Good luck with your treatments ! I feel the same way all the time about fitting in. Not only on here but my whole life. Not sure exactly why.

But I do know you are accepted here. You are accepted for exactly who you are.

You just reached out for help by writing this. You fit in just like I fit in. I just ramble and be as honest as I can, brutally honest on here, and that's all I do. Your post is just like mine, and you fit in just as well as I do. Everyone here is very, very accomodating to each indivudual person.

I am a 34 year old guy, who has been dealing with bp2 since I was nine. yep, that was my onset. I too have a loving wife that I can't and won't share this experience with. I'm like a stone sometimes around her... protecting and nurturing the relationship from the illness. I am scared too. I think that we all are. Inside... in that place that we don't show... it's scary.

I wish that I could say more...
but i'm on in the mornings. Talk it up. post it up. I would love to have conversations with you!

So then you know how much we want you here and how accepted you are too then, right?

Thanks everyone for the acceptance and welcome. It's good to know that I'm not alone.

One of my biggest concerns is that I'm always going to say or write the "wrong thing", it seems I have mastered that in RL with real people.

I had belonged to another group before I came here but left there because my BP fiancée was also a member of that group and I felt like my being there stopped her from getting the help and support she needed, as well as doing the same to me.

That's why I come to you seeking support a newbie here.

Thank you all for helping me to feel the

The Wolf

well, i never say the right thing, and I rarely get in trouble cuz of it.

if you want to fit in.... then all you have to do is talk. that's it. that's the big secret. Talk a lot and get it out there. people will respond and before you know it you will be working on personal issues giving you a better life and you will get sucked into this site cuz it will become your goto for life problems.

whew... all that in one breath.

so just talk to us. that's it. the big secret is out lol.......

just playin with ya a little.. lol

I don't know why sometimes insecurities overwhelm us all. We got to keep on trucking and not take things to heart; just keep on moving forward. Then, from time to time, break down so we can get our oil change lol :-)

and if you think you offended someone... just own it. apologize... that's how relationships are formed really.

like what I wrote... about the big secret being out. that could be offensive even though I was just playing.

I would own up to it and opologize for it. done deal..... you don't have to worry about saying the wrong thing. trust me on this... make this place your safe haven.

True, sometimes we mean well but can't see that we might be projecting something that may offend others. Speak up and let it be known, so it can be corrected!