[Mollie May]

I do really well when "times are tough." I can really pull through. But when the pressure's off, that's always when I seem to fall apart.

For the last 6 months, my boss has made my life a living hell. I hated going to work every day (and I've always loved my job). But I got up every day and went and did what I needed to--no problem (well...some stress and anxiety...but still, I did it). Then, recently, my boss got fired. And it's a huge relief! But rather than feeling excited, I've found myself struggling to get out of bed. I've been sleeping a lot, taken a few sick days. Today I thought I wouldn't make it in to work again (but I did).

It makes me wonder whether or not I should talk to the pdoc about it. But then (and this is a separate issue, really) I worry she'll try to change my meds or add something new...and who knows how that will turn out! And I just don't know that I'm that bad off...I mean, this is not one of my typical depressions, but I guess it's not "normal" either. I don't know.

[manicminer]

I have this sometimes. When the pressure is on or that deadline is looming, I'm at my best. When I get all the time in the world, or my daily tasks become routine, I become complacent and don't give it my all.

I think its more human nature.

But the not wanting to get out of bed to even go; that sounds like an issue to bring up with the p-doc

Best wishes and good luck

[~Christina]

I agree with Manic. I have done this many times over. As far as telling your Pdoc ... Maybe start off telling the Pdoc " I don't really want to change my medications because of X,Y,Z but this is what is going on _______"

Good Luck

[beadlady29]

This sounds liek it mite be worthwhioento talk to pdoc about...not necessarily because of needign a med change ...mabe....but at least to help u figure uot what it is ur really tryign to avoid...............good luck with this adn please keep posting about it.............hang in their....
warm regards,
all of us beadies

[Mollie May]

Glad, as usual, that I'm not alone. I just received my NAC last night, so I think I'll start on it and see how that works as a supplement to my Lamictal. Dr. seems to think it could help, and there's good research in its favor.

I do this too. I can perform against all odds when I need to. I think that it comes with living with a mental illness. We have been pushed into a corner by our own minds and forced to cope and move on with life. We can succeed where others might fail.

but, when things are good... yeah, I have a big problem with those times too. Actually, things are really good for me now, and all I do is wait for that ball to drop. Waiting for it not to be true, for the problems looming in the corner. it drives me mad sometimes, wishing for whatever bad to just hurrry up and get here. I feel for you.... I know what that is like.

yep.

i've done this also

[beadlady29]

beads also can realate to that one.....like always waiting far the big ball to nddrop in our lap...........not if but when..........