...like finding a new direction huh?

and I'm not interested in being somethin' I am not!

and I'm not even something I thought I wasn't?

it kinda doesn't seem to matter what I do I am impervious to medical intervention!

despite being such a mess.

[Moose72]

Not getting manic are you?

[BlackPup]

I get really wacky dreams when I miss one dose. But things start going down hill if I miss more than that so I try really hard to remember.

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

...like finding a new direction huh?

and I'm not interested in being somethin' I am not!

You lost hope in it, but you sure do want to feel relief and be better!

and I'm not even something I thought I wasn't?

But you can be something that you thought you could never be!

it kinda doesn't seem to matter what I do I am impervious to medical intervention!

Honestly, how open are you to being put on meds. You are on an A.P. only. Have you let them try a mood stabalizer as well? Lamictal has little to no side effects for me and it won't destroy my thyroid! it works wonders on emotions too.

despite being such a mess.

Just some food for thought.

[Clinte89]

Dan makes a good point, maybe you need to try something different that will make you feel better. Meds arnt so bad I take a good many everyday and Im happy to do that because they keep me happy well most the time. You cant expect perfection. But you can try to get perfection.

[ElisaB]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

...like finding a new direction huh?

and I'm not interested in being somethin' I am not!

and I'm not even something I thought I wasn't?

it kinda doesn't seem to matter what I do I am impervious to medical intervention!

despite being such a mess.

I feel ya!! I feel the same way. And then I stopped taking them and found they DID do something. Definitely keep trying different combinations, took years to find a good one and still being tweeked, but it's some relief!! Keep trying...