Puzzled...

I wish there was a way I could record myself saying something before I ever said it, so I could hear what I sound like to other people and change my speech pattern as to not raise concern.

Got to work and had to meet with the training man to schedule a training session. He asked what shift I worked and when I was available, and as I started to explain myself he cut me off saying "Cool your jets"

Then a neighbor farmer called to return a call my roommate had made from here at work. He asked how I was. I said I was pretty good. He responded with, "Well you don't sound like you're doing too good." But I was feeling very good.

Everyone always tells me, "Hey smile. It will be ok."

A p-doc once told me that I my "affect" (the way you wear your face perty much) is negative and that gives people the impression I am upset.

So people are concerned about me because I have a pissed off look on my face all the time? lol I find this a bit humorous.

I had a fantastic day today. The gf spent the night and we had a great little Valentine's Day. Then I used my Tax Refund Check from the Federal government to help buy an "Assualt Rifle" that the same Federal government is currently trying to ban. So I was in a great mood.

We went and shot said rifle, as well as test firing the new reloads I made for my deer rifle. Which put me in an even greater mood.

At the same time I was thinking of what I might post on facebook on March 1st, the 4 year anniversary of my bp dx. Even thinking about it now gets me emotional to the point of tears.

Who knows. I feel like I'm doing very well considering my circumstances. Just wish I was video recorded so I could play it back and watch how "crazy" I am.

I feel you there. Many people think Im either mad all the time or terrible depressed. I guess I just look that way to some people cause not everyone ques on it. I also get you on the recording thing it would be funny to look back and be like wow was I really that looney.

I feel you! I am constantly getting fired or kicked out of groups or friends suddenly don't want me around and I can't figure out Wth I did!

Might have something to do with my choice of sins to give up for Lent:
CIGARETTES!

That COULD have something to Di with it!

Didn't give up nicotine though. Still rubbin snuff.

For me to give up nicotine would be a Pubilc Safety Hazard! lol

Lol funny.

I just had some brandy. Bad me. Blood thinners. But I didn't have a lot.

mmm... What flavor?

I imagine brandy flavor. lol Just had to mess with ya.

It doesn't say a flavor. But it has an after taste of green apple.

Well I've had many flavors:

-Blackberry
-Ginger
-Homemade (lemons and strawberries used to make it in a 5 gallon bucket)

Never had straight Brandy, not even sure if I've seen it

Hmm never heard of different flavor of brandi. I have only had one flavor, kind of a smoky carmel flavor.

oh ok. The kind that in the movies you see men in cigar lounges or in their study drinking out of snifter glasses.

Mr. Burns from The Simpsons is the best example I can think of. lol

The bottle doesn't say a flavor. I just think it tastes like green apples afterward.

Yeah that kind of brandy. lol Im trying to give up drinking cause my moods get out of whack when i drink so no more brandi for me, well ok just one more glass.

So far my mood is okay.

Good to hear moose. Some people are ok with drinking, when I drink I get wild. I act like Im manic but Im not its just alcohol induced.

So far I'm just really subdued.

same here

I guess if I drank a larger amount I might.

All I just put in me now is cocoa puffs. Damned Zyprexa!