many cycling in a day?? with anger???

Sometimes I cycle several times in one day. Mostly when I am manic, I am so fast that it turns into anger. None of that stereotypical "i'm on top of the world" stuff. Then the anger gets so bad and I scream and yell, then I get really deep depression. Then it happens again a couple hours later go way manic angery agitated. Is this really bipolar? I just explode. This happens for like 2-4 days then I am just my regular depressed anxious self.

I need help dealing with my anger. I don't know what to do with it. Especially when other people are angry with me, I just want to top off the anger. I hate being manic. Plus I buy stuff with out thinking. Bleh.

Ya, that's happened to me though it is very difficult for me to become angry and my mood seems to change from one moment to the next but, there is an overall feeling involved of being so happy I wouldn't mind going nuclear.

I use noise canceling headphones playing music because I get angry even with people's voices. I'm coming down from that spot. When I'm too angry no one should be around me.

I live with Anger everyday.. A freind talked me into joining here because ussually I don't talk to others... I am ussually exploding my mouth off at people and not very much liked. I can relate to the Loneliness you must feel. I get that alot too but am afraid to get too close to anyone for fear of getting hurt emotionally. Ussually when someone is mad with me I tell them how I feel or how they made me feel and why I feel this way. Using "I" statements helps too.

Yes, that sounds like my mania. I have dysphoric mania, not euphoric mania. It makes me angry and aggitated. I'm also an ultradian cycler, so I can cycle very quickly, within the same day. But, usually only if I'm triggered or about to have an episode, (which is when I have my explosive anger.)

I'm so glad to hear that I'm not the only one! Sometimes just the sound of their footsteps is enough make me twitch. I work in an office and sit right near a heavy traffic area. Some days are just murder for me.

The headphones are sometimes that only thing that allow me to keep up the appearance sanity.

Sounds like we have a lot in common then. I hate it, then I get so depressed that I am mentally ill and can't hold a job when I have so much potential in life. There is no way I can hold a job when I am flying off the handle so much. It has been worse since I found out they are reviewing my disability. Crap like that triggers it, I don't know what I would do with out it.

I can cycle several times in a day. I hope you get feeling better.

It does sound like ultradian, though I'm not someone who can diagnose that. I can only imagine how exhausting it must be---I get worn out just having mood episodes every couple of months or so. to you, Midnightmoon.

I think it is normal that they review disability every few years just to see how you're doing.

I'm sorry you're not able to hold a job due to your anger. My anger is a relatively new development. I have a job but it's incredibly hard. I can't go on disability though. I'm the primary income for my family.

But, just because you don't have a job doesn't mean you're worthless or not living up to your potential. Do you have any creative hobbies or anything? Like painting, music, writing? There is a lot that you can do that is meaningful. If not, maybe you can volunteer at something very part time. Like a soup kitchen a couple times a month?

Our society puts so much emphasis on having a job as this life defining thing. But really it isn't. Family, friends, hobbies, living life is what life is all about. Not sitting at some desk. Money is an imaginary thing that society has made the most important thing in the world. But it only has value because we deem that it has value. If society collapsed tomorrow, money would be the most useless thing. It's not food, water, or shelter. Even gold only has value because someone hundreds of years ago thought it was pretty.

You can define your own life however you want.

I do. And it's usually a high, happy, active mood followed by an angry leave me the hell along mood. The sound of the dog licking or smacking his chops is enough to make me grit my teeth so I don't freak out on him. It's SO irritating. I tend to be hyper sensitive to noises during this time which doesn't help.