depressed and manic two minutes later..

the last couple of days has been a huge roller coaster for me. I felt I needed to be admitted only a couple of days ago and now I feel manic. My highs and lows are exhausting me. I go to my doc on Friday. I don't feel like it could get here quick enough...HELP. I have been doing pretty well coping on my own and I hit rock bottom hard a few months ago and gave in and am trying things slowly. Not enough....

Prozac, klonipin, and Percocet.

I have been up and down that quickly. It is very scary and draining. I called my doc's line and went into the hospital as soon as I could. Maybe that would be a good plan for you--or at least call the number and leave a message. Then listen to what your doc suggests.

thank you Payne1, I also have to worry about my son and his care. I am a single mom and no help with daily care for him. So hospital is not an option...I just suffer and cope the best I can. I would love to be able to go and try to find a little balance, but I do have a doc apt this Friday...not soon enough, but I have to be patient as possible. VERY HARD when your MANIC AS EVER! Finding this site has really helped me though. I have been trying to treat through my family doc because all the pdoc's in my area I have been to over the last 18 years and I cant function on the high doses of meds let alone take care of my son. I currently drive 50 miles a day to get him to school and home. I cant be a zombie and drive. He is more important...I usually get him to school and then try to deal with most of my pent up emotions while he is gone. I prefer him not to see me a wreck if possible. Thank you for your support and yes at times its VERY scary.

it's a horrible feeling.

((((hugs)))))

I cycle really fast usually. It is exhausting. If not careful I can trigger into an episode, and I hate those. In the past 17 months I've had more episodes than I care to count, due to some pretty heavy triggers.

If you're really feeling you need the hospital and you're not going to make it, maybe you should go. Do you have anyone to help with your son if you really need it?

Dark heart, Thanks for the reply. I don't have anyone to help with him or I would probably be there now. I don't want to hurt myself, but I just feel like I cant take the pain anymore. I have a lot of triggers as well. yes...It's very exhausting. Any advice.

I use distractions like t.v. or music to escape from the "right now." It's something I can do but still be present. Sometimes getting the energy out helps. Like drawing or writing if I can get my mind steady enough. Sometimes I go sit in the car and scream if I can sneak away long enough. I know that's werid, but I figure it's a sound proof box where I can be alone for 5 minutes.

I seem to be the same way. In fact, yesterday I was nasty all day. And then like a switch that evening, I was calm and "normal". Today I am agitated like no other. It sucks.

Try the lemon thing, Extreme Bipolar I: you know, squeeze two lemons into an 8 ox
glass of water; if you're not better in 4 hours, repeat the process. It does work for
some of us; maybe it will work for you at least until you get in to see your therapist on Friday.

Take care.

Thanks genetic, I will be trying that tonight. It is fairly decent weather here so I got out and took the dogs for a walk! They needed it and so did I. It helps when I am able to walk or just exercise some. But coming out crutches for five mths and just starting physical therapy last week, I think our 3 blocks was a HUGE improvement and I feel much better. You all are so awesome. I also read your post about taking wheat,rye, and barley out of your diet and it sounds interesting. I would love to know what it changes exactly and plan on discussing a new diet with my doc because of my battle with cancer as well. I have a son to live for and I would like to be here for a lot longer even if I am so "gifted" that I cant stand it. lol. But if I can just ease the symptoms...I am strong enough to get through.

I also write and sew. I enjoy quilting when I can focus. I drive 50 miles a day to take my son to and from school so usually I will crank the radio and sing or rock my heart out and if need be cry. It does soothe things sometimes.

It does make it hard when you also have a child to look after. I wonder if there's any "day care" treatment for patients--but I guess you'd still have to find some place for your son.

I will remember this issue and bring it up when I get a chance at some meeting associated with mental health.....

That would be awesome to know. I have been at stay at home mom basically his whole life. He would have anxiety being somewhere that people don't understand his bipolar or his ticks as well. That's why I struggle so much to keep myself in the right state of mind to help him...and myself of course.

I hope things get better. Hopefully you find the right cocktail....I remember rapid cycling before and it wasn't fun. I'll be praying for you.