So I went to the hospital. There are 2 hospitals here. It. Wasn't that great of an experience. I was in a very bad mixed episode. I'm on some heavy doses.

Zyprexa 40mgs, Depakote 1000. I'm on that until the lamictal is at a therapeutic dose. Zoloft 100, doxepin 100 mgs., clonazepam 1mg and 1 more that I can't remember.

I didn't go to the hospital I went to before this one I only saw the pdoc once. The majority of the staff there seemed like they hated their jobs. I really liked the pdoc their were a lot of schizophrenics in there. My state has done some major cutbacks here. Anyways I left against their medical advice. I left bc the staff ( which were just RN's. Would just ignore u if you needed help with something.

I was in a severe mixed episode. But the good part is I was able to go to the other hospital, to get my meds and I met some really cool ppl in there at the hospital. I feel really bad for the schizophrenics in there. They only had 1 pdoc for 16 patients. Anyway survived. I couldn't remember dates etc. I was on the verge of psychosis. I believe now that I personally need to be on an AP. I'm hoping to switch to latuda.

I was agitated, angry, crying, paranoid. It's gonna take awhile for me to stabilize. Amazingly my son's father took him until I stabilize.

I fricken hate having bipolar. However I have no doubt I have it now. Sorry for such negativity.

Thx you guys.

Thx for the support, everyone.

[Cocosurviving]

I'm glad things worked out for the best at the second hospital. I'm on a AP and it has made all the difference. Best wishes

Hey, I just want to clarify what happened. When I left the first hospital they wouldn't give me my meds.

So I went to the other hospital and they gave me enough to get through to see a pdoc.

I met some really cool ppl in the first hospital.

The pdoc I met in the second hospital was Wicked smart.

Just wanted to clarify.

[newtus]

your story makes me sad. cause i know the realities of most hospitals.
im so glad you survived...
i wish you well.

Newtus, did u by any chance read about my last pdoc?

It was craziness. I don't want to relive it, but can u can find it under my threads.

The for responding.

Can you guys believe it even on 40 mgs of zyprexa I'm still having a hard time sleeping.

I fall asleep then wake up and can't go back to sleep.

But I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell, matchbox 20. Love that song.

[Tiger_Lily]

I love that song too.

Unfortunately, not all hospitals are created equal. I did find the other patients to be most supportive and the staff less so, though at my pdoc the one time was very good.

I was seriously isolating and he brought up failure to thrive syndrome, he knew I was a psych major, and asked why I thought adults could go without social contact when babies can die without it. It was an eye opener. I still isolate sometimes, but no longer think it's an ok coping mechanism.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by passionskyy

Newtus, did u by any chance read about my last pdoc?

It was craziness. I don't want to relive it, but can u can find it under my threads.

i didnt see and i cant find it. but if you gave me the link i will def read it.

[Victoria'smom]

So if you need to go back it's hospital #2 right.

Actually I did have to go back. I got a rash and was worried about the Stephen Johnson thing.

They changed my meds. I will update my signature, but tonight I am so tired.