[Mr. Radio]

I can't hold a conversation, I can't think as fast as I use to be able to, I can't function as good as I use to be able to. I am not as happy as I once was. I had a psychotic break into psychosis this past December, then got diagnosed as being bipolar. All I think about is why me and can I get better. The meds aren't helping and I am stuck in this position. Can anyone relate or is this normal for people who are bipolar. This is really frustrating, I feel trapped in my own skin and can only dream about being normal again.

[Trippin2.0]

You probably do not want to hear this, but sounds like the meds are dumbing you down. A certain cocktail did that to me. It was gawdawful! My thoughts and reactions were slow and muted and my memory was no better than a goldfish. Yeah that killed my social skills immediately.

If not meds, could also be your brain is still recuperating from your episode, they can leave you out of sorts for months at a time, especially the woppers.

Uhm I dont have any advice except maybe speak to you doc, you might be overmedicated. They tend to want to tranquelize the episodes out of us with antipsychotics, and while this helps initially, its usually a good idea to use as needed or in small doses.

And I want to say that it can get better, but everybody's path to better is individual. This seems like the perfect opportunity to start carving out yours.

[Odee]

Originally Posted by Mr. Radio

I can't hold a conversation, I can't think as fast as I use to be able to, I can't function as good as I use to be able to. I am not as happy as I once was. I had a psychotic break into psychosis this past December, then got diagnosed as being bipolar. All I think about is why me and can I get better. The meds aren't helping and I am stuck in this position. Can anyone relate or is this normal for people who are bipolar. This is really frustrating, I feel trapped in my own skin and can only dream about being normal again.

Here here!!

You're not alone.

[Darth Bane]

this is not normal... you need to find right mix of meds... and many times wrong mix of meds make our bipolar worse... i remember when pdoc gave me ssri for my bipolar .... horrible time of my life !!!

[Cocosurviving]

I also agree its not normal. Something is up with your meds. Too strong, side affects or wrong cocktail combination. I would also encourage you to start reading about bipolar disorder, websites are available with information and support groups.

[Moose72]

I know the feeling and I agree it could be your meds. Maybe it will wear off. Have you been on your current dose long?

[Mr. Radio]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I know the feeling and I agree it could be your meds. Maybe it will wear off. Have you been on your current dose long?

I use to be on risperdal 3mg and then I switched to saphris 20mg. Going to try cutting it down to 10mg, but I have been this way since I've come down from my mania. Can't seem to jump back into things. Can't even hold a conversation with my friends the same way I use to be able to. I hope to god it's as simple as the med change or lower dosage.

Recovery just takes time. Please follow your psychiatrist's advice (at least for a while) about how much medication you should be taking. Jumping back into things
may never be the best solution for you. Walking back into them may be the best
thought to keep foremost in your mind.

[Moose72]

Could it be the saphris? I was quite zombified on that back in November.

[Mr. Radio]

I don't believe it's the medicine. I'm going to try a lower dosage, but I have felt this way since my mania crash.... or since the meds brought me back down. Been like this since January. Why am I the only one that has to go through this? Is it something that can be fixed?

[Trippin2.0]

If you have been feeling like this since the meds "brought you down" why are you so certain its not med related? Time frame fits, experiences fit...

If its meds, yes its fixable. If its you, I believe its still fixable, although you should probably consult a therapist to discover exactly how.