How are you Speed?

Thinking about you speed <3

Take care, hon.

Take care Leslie.

Be safe.

stay safe. We're here for you.

Jason and I had a wonderful time together. He had to leave for a little while.
But he will be back soon. I am going with him when he comes back.

I need to get some things in order first. I can't tell anyone but you guys. Where I am going I can't have my IPAD. So I will have to say goodbye to all you wonderful people.

Jason made me see there is nothing left here for me but sadness and grief. He said I deserve to be happy. He is right I have wanted to leave for a long time.

But I will miss all of you. I do have sometime before I leave.

Don't go.

I don't know what to say Leslie, but I care about you very much. I will share with you my big talk with God yesterday... the universe called me on my **** and I have crumbled to the point where I'm admitting I have no clue what I'm doing, that I'm a sinner and just a plain human, and give it up to Him to show me my path and guide me through the darkness. My struggles are not comparable to yours, mine are so small compared to losing your mom and your son. I spent some time with my friend Susan yesterday, the one who lost her 30 yr old son to an accidental heroin overdose almost exactly one year before Jason's. She has a special affinity for my older son which I'm so grateful for, she has been there a lot for me with getting him through rehab. Her dad died suddenly when she was a young girl, we cried together about how much we miss our dads, and about her son, and her divorce she's going through. I don't know exactly what my point is, I guess I wish you 2 could be friends in real life. I wish I could help you in real life and give you a real hug.

Was your son named after Jason in "Jason and the Argonauts"? More to this.

Speed...whats going on with the mental hospital? Pls don't leave us. We care about you.

Jason means healer.

Who on here sent the police to my House ?????

This is anonymous , or I thought.

Are you serious ??? Wtf yes it's supposed to be anonymous... Omg hoping you're ok I'd be pissed as all hell if my privacy were invaded from here, supposed to be our safe place to open up and share. Please update if you can.

How would someone even know where you live?

I have no idea where you live. I don't remember even having to put in address when you sign up for anything.

Well, it wasn't I who called the police.

I only spoke to the officer for a few minutes. He said Someone from an online Forum called and said I was suicidal

Then my husband was home and the officer left.

This is the only online forum I am on.

I would love to know who has my personal info, and feels it is ok to call the police!

I'm sorry this happened to you Speed. "Anger" doesn't even describe how mad I would be if it were me.

I think it's terribly wrong and hope you get an apology, what a mess

wow...

have you given your address out to ANYONE on here?

Didn't you post your son's obituary here? Or a link to it? And didn't it have some of your personal information?

No, my son is not dead!

I know that calling the police is a drastic step and you are angry at having your privacy violated, but you've been extremely suicidal, especially with all the reminders and holidays about Jason's death and having trouble with the hospital.

I'm sure the person who called only did so out of genuine concern for your well being and not as a malicious act.

They should have Pm me first. Like I said depending on the circumstances I could have called them or given them my phone or my husbands phone. They went too far. Most of us are on here because of the anonymity and the security that brings. I don't feel secure sharing anything anymore. Trust was broken. Also, Jason is not dead and I feel incredible about that!

How are you Speed ?

Really funny, like I am going to answer that honestly.

can I take a shower or wait for the police to come today ?