"Unintentional" Lying?

I know that this is impossible in a way, since if you speak an untruth without realizing it, it's more of a "mistake" than a "lie." However, I still feel very guilty about it.

I think, on average, I've been doing better now than I was in the past. That is to say, sometimes I have moments of not being completely, chronically depressed, which is a lot more than I could ever say for the last, let's say, decade or so.

So, during these somewhat good moments, I might talk about where I've improved, and how I've done it, and things I'm doing. And then a low spell sets in. And then I feel like such a complete idiot for even thinking anything good about myself, but even worse, I feel like a liar. Is it a lie, if I thought and felt it was true at the time?

Thanks for reading...

Well- I don't think I can give a 'good' reply here.. But I do feel the same, often, and almost everyday.. =="

This is pointless, and this still can't get most of those guilty, regret, stupid, etc feelings out of my head, but still... When you think about it 'logically', don't the others also make that mistake? Isn't it normal for a human being to make mistakes? Why try so hard to look cool and perfect?
You can tolerate others' mistakes, cant you? So why cant you tolerate yourself?
Some kind of..fears or phobias? Are they even real? Or do they exist..only in our own delusion?

ehh- O_O"
f-forgive me for bragging like that--!!

Part of the deceit of depression is feelings of guilt that far outweigh the actual situation. As your depression lessens, the guilt will also lessen. Give yourself a break...you are aware and trying...we all make mistakes....and everybody lies. Someone told me that and I didn't believe it...but it's true. None of us are perfect but at least we try.

Also acting as if everything were fine is a great way to move into a more positive frame of mind...I don't call that lying...but acting. It's a proven method!

I know exactly how you feel. People even call me a liar to my face. It's like I take two steps forward and one step back all the time so people think I'm either making things up or I just don't care. I try to be as vague as possible so it seems like I'm not trying to be a broken record that goes back and forth. it feels like I'm doing the same things over and over and say the same 'mistakes' over and over. I just don't know anymore. Sometimes i wonder if i'm really emotionally unstable or just a stupid liar who can't even tell if the sky is blue.
I don't think we're liars but it does feel that way.