WHY?!?!

Thoughts still racing so much hard to keep on one topic. Happy? maybe. I don't even know. Blankets so warm, wish I could sleep just to pass time. Haven't slept more than 4 hours but feel rested as if 'd had a full 8. Had a ton to drink last night, didn't even mellow me out still couldn't sleep ended up writing. So much writing, pages and pages, read it over this morning and it's actually coherent. How is that coherent but my thoughts do't feel like they've been?! Dad thinks this must be normal me? Why? I feel so out of control and crazy!

alcohol makes for lousy sleep...decreases REM sleep, increases disrupted sleep and just generally makes for an poor rest. not helped by mixing with the meds you are on.
are you addressing your drinking?

It was once in a blue moon thing. I was at a party and desperately needed something to try to calm my racing thoughts or at least make me less agitated. Plus the physical pain I was in (not liver, this was literally the 3rd time I've drank. Wrong spot on my back anyway). I feel completely well rested. I don't even know.

I'll try listening to music. Maybe that'll help?

It might be a good idea to call your psychiatrist, tell him/her what's going on and see if they suggest a med change.

Good luck!

He won't give me his contact info. I texted my T who is in the same practice. She hasn't responded yet... Gonna take sleep med tonight, because I know even though I feel great, sleeping about 4 hours a night isn't sustainable.

take care....

i would be scared to drink heavy while taking my meds, but I understand not sleeping part, need sleep here, i do anything to get sleep, the racing thought, ooooh those thoughts horrible thoughts wont shut up, no relief, u have to find something to entertain your mind and your hands, not tv, that doesnt work. Im trying to write stories about my kids when they were little, they love to hear about myselves. So im putting in a notebook, and trying to put some scrapbook together. I want to finds places to go hiking for me and my kids when they come next week.I been looking in the interent trying to finding ideas of things i might enjoy If your brains busy doing something else it wont drivingu crazy TRY DOING IT

Be real cautions on drinking while on meds. Short term it may feel good but the side effects could turn out for the worst.

What side effects should I watch out for?

It kinda sucked, anyway... It didn't even calm me down. It's like, my coordination was still mostly there, and besides being able to talk about my problems without getting upset, it was still me and my racing thoughts (which, by the way, are weird as hell if you're drunk) and inability to sit still. I was *hyper* until early morning, slept for four hours, woke up feeling great and raring to go. The sober people in our group didn't have nearly as much energy as me. And the drunk people all had horrible hangovers the next morning.

If you were not alone, any feedback from those who saw you during that time? Was the energy good energy? (vs the kind that makes others uncomfortable and for ourselves does not result in positive activities/productive behavior) Take care with in the moment comparisons....too many variables...too superficial. take care.

you were down and up at the same time? I've felt that way. It can be dangerous.

I don't have any advice. But I've considered smoking again. I quit smoking cigarettes last October. I'd also love a Woodchuck (hard cider) or Long Island iced tea! I understand why Bipolar people go off their Rx's and self medicate. I can't even tell if the meds make a difference at all except the side effects. I think I actually feel worse on these stupid meds!!

It's unfortunate ur meds are not working. I've experience hypo & mania, they were hell to me. I don't do anything that can cause me to go through hell (drinking & drugs). My MS works. I encourage u to speak w/ ur pdoc abt ur meds.

My T diagnosed my current state as mania. not sure whether just me or meds