Finally saw pdoc today

Made it to my eval without getting hospitalize along the way, go me!

Official dx - Bipolar II (which I figured). She put me on celexa and abilify. No mood stabilizer for now, she hopes the AP will keep hypomania at bay alone. Unfortunately I cannot continue the abilify unless she continues to give me free samples because it is $638 A MONTH until I reach my deductible!!! so i'm not sure how that's going to go. She mentioned another AP I could try...started with an L...litudol or something like that.

I still feel depressed, but I feel a bit more hopeful. I was really scared she was going to send me inpatient or try to push partial or something but she didn't. And she treated me like a human being - she spent 45 minutes listening to me and my concerns. So rare in a pdoc in my experience! I'm sure the next appt will be just the standard 10 minute check-in, but it's ok.

I threw out all the box cutters in the house - told hubby to keep the one he uses for work hidden until this episode passes.

I don't feel better yet but I feel confident that i COULD feel better and I think I'm ready to fight again. It feels really good to have someone on my side.

Thanks to everyone for their support on this forum! You have all gotten me through the roughest times during this relapse. I hope now to be back on the road to recovery, or at least management.

Just have to make sure I convince myself the meds are necessary - I'm still not committed to the idea that i might need them for the rest of my life!

Took the day off work tomorrow just for the hell of it. I need a day away from my crazy coworkers and the stress of the lesson plans and IEPs. Hope by Monday I will be a little better.

I'm so glad to hear your great news! Now, as a fellow bipolar, I need to point out that it takes awhile for the meds to kick in, so you can't expect to be feeling better yet--except, as you say, in knowing you are now on the right path! Way to go!

I'm glad you had a good visit and starting on treatment..

Enjoy that day off

I'm bipolar 2 also. I also take Abilify, and several others. It is so expensive. Canada has a generic version of it. I have gotten it from there several times. it was like $120 for 3 months supply. Is the other med your pdoc mentioned possibly Lamictal? I take that too. There is a generic for it. It works well for me. And so does the Abilify. Hope you start feeling well soon.

Oh I know that the meds could take awhile. Dr said a few days for abilify and two weeks for celexa. I am feeling awful today so I hope it works soon :-/ I CANNOT go inpatient! i might have to strap myself to the couch to keep me from doing something impulsively stupid.

In any case the other drug she mentioned was Latuda. a relatively new AP. She said she wouldn't want me to try Lamictal right away because it takes forever to titrate up to a therapeutic dose unless you are inpatient.

Ugh I hope something works soon! At least I know I have someone to call now if things take a turn for the worse.

I would not wish anyone to be a member of this club, however I'm you what's going on. I agree w/ your pdoc abt Lamictal. I'm doing the titration and its been hell waiting. I've been on it for five weeks and have three more to go. I was not told this bs upfront. I have BP 1 so I can't take any AD. Celexa flipped me over to mania. I know you've been suffering for a while. I encourage you to create a safety plan.

Stay strong

yes I think I'm going to talk to my husband about a safety plan because I feel so terrible today :-( I am feeling horribly guilty over spending all our money the past two weeks. I didn't save any to pay hubby's tickets (he got in an accident two weeks ago and got a careless driving ticket and a seatbelt ticket that we're trying to fight because he WAS wearing his seatbelt). now I don't know what we're going to do. and i maxed out my credit card as well :-( the one we have spent six months paying down to get our credit better for a house. well that's out the window.

today I took off of work which was probably a bad idea but at least i kept my son home with me so I won't do anything terrible since he's here. my brother's girlfriend is also off today so i'm gonna ask her to come to lunch with us or something so i'm not alone too long.

i was on lamictal years ago and i remember it doing absolutely nothing to help the severe depression i experienced, so i wasn't willing to wait for it.

we'll see what happens with the celexa.